BY DEMARCO'S STANDARDS (Part 5)

Bat Shit

Standing up I brushed myself off and looked back at the burning building with a smile. Nothing had ever felt so satisfying as watching Jax go kaboom and knowing I was the one who butchered him.

Giving one last look at my handy work I took off in a jog after baby girl and the other's. When I caught up Miri rushed at me and threw herself around me while burying her face in my neck. "God Cole your so fucking stupid. You could've died". She sobbed.

"He's not stupid Miri, he's fucking crazy". Demarco chuckled.

Speaking of my mental issues I knew for sure after this they would demand I take my meds but it's not that simple. I can start popping my pills immediately but it would take a week or more for them to get into my system and start working. No, I know their thinking about having me committed again to some white wall facility where I'm treated like an invalid, but I ain't having that shit.

I carried Miri all the way back to the plane and never released my grip on her but she didn't seem to mind. Her Pape prepared a plate of food for her and she scarfed it down as if she hadn't ate in day's. Just thinking about Jax doing all these thing's to her had me going over the edge again. "I didn't kill him good enough. I should have stretched it out longer". I blurted out.

Miri patted my arm. "You did great baby. Get some rest".

I shook my head no vigorously. "No. That's what you want me to do. All of you are going to send me off again".

Miri smoothed my hair. "No Olive, no ones going to send you away. I won't let them". She promised.

London cleared his throat and began to speak. "No Miri, he's right. I've arranged for a short stay at one of the best facilities around. Just long enough to heal him".

Miri sprung from my lap with her fists balled. "No Pape, I won't allow it. You have no right to do this".

"I do and I will. I will not allow my daughter or grandchild to suffer anymore. He needs to get better not just for himself but for you too. I won't risk your safety". London snarled.

"Cole would never hurt us and you know it" Miri yelled back while Demarco watched both before speaking.

"Shit head can stay with me until his meds kick in". He offered but London just kept refusing then nodded toward me.

Yes I heard their discussion but my mind was somewhere else as I doodled on a note pad. "Look at him". London said in a more softer understanding tone.  "He's not even here right now baby girl. You can't like to see him this way. Let him get the help he needs".

Miri looked at me sadly. "Fine Pape". She said and grabbed my hand leading me to the back of the plane for  privacy.

Taking my phone, she sent a series of texts then smiled at me. "Don't worry Olive, I won't let them take you. Just follow my lead when we exit the plane".

Miri got up and threw her arm's around my neck where she placed a series of kisses. "Your voices are my voices too Olive. We will get through this together. Tell me what your voices are saying right now".

I shook my head vigourlsy not wanting to reveal what they were telling me now. "Please Cole. Share your hurt with me". Miri pleaded.

Not able to control my mind from taking over my mouth I heard myself saying. "I want to do very bad thing's to you. I want to tie you down and leave you like that and use your body whenever I want, however I want"

Miri smiled. "Don't you already do that Olive?"

I shook my head no. "No, not like this Miri. I want to hurt you. I want you to cry. I want to hear you scream and beg me to stop". I stopped as my eyes watered up at my heinous visions. "And I hate myself for thinking like this. I hate that I have to be like this and take meds. But I'd never hurt you baby girl. I know I can control it enough to never hurt you. Your Pape is best Miri. I should get help".

"No Cole. I can help you". Miri pleaded but I just turned my attention out the window.

The plane landed and Miri reminded me of her plan but I wasn't sure yet. She had contacted Ari to have her car waiting at the airport for our escspe. As we descended the steps Miri gripped my hand and spotted her car. When our feet touched the ground Miri took off running and at the last minute I decided to follow her. I couldn't let my baby girl down or be separated from her.

London and Demarco's foot falls could be heard chasing after us as London threatened Miri in everyway possible. He even went as far as to yell that she was acting like her impulsive nonthinking mother.

Miri jumped behind the wheel of her car and blew a kiss to her Pape before peeling out of there. Where we was going we had no clue but knew we was together and that's all that mattered. Of course we would miss our child but knew he would be in good hands. This was only temporary though, just until I got better.

Hour's later down the road, Miri pulled off to a secluded area where she climbed over on top of my lap. Smiling she purred. "I don't know about you Olive but all this running has made me hot".

Smashing her lips to mine we made the car rock and the windows fog up. The next morning we found ourselves taking a ferry to the remote Hatteras Island.