Shawn Salvatore

Chapter 19.

Emily's P.O.V

I wake to the feeling of having way too much energy. I instantly know it's from Shawn's blood. I know our plan didn't go perfectly back in the school, of course it freaking didn't, I mean why would it? I can't remember much after Tyler grabbed me. Apart from the agonising pain in my throat it's a blank mess in my head.

Now, however, all I want to do is run around Lakeport's lake about seven hundred times. I've never felt this alive before, it feels strange yet exhilarating at the same time. I can hear clearer than I ever have before, my smell is sharper and I know that when I eventually open my eyes my eyesight will be like nothing I've ever experienced before. Better than the time I got high at a party last year.

Lying still I focus on familiar voices having a conversation somewhere in the house. I think they're in the same room as me but far enough away that they don't notice my breathing change as I wake up.

"Shawn I'm proud of you." Lily says in her over dramatic motherly tone. "You're finally using your vampire skills to your advantage."

Shawn laughs but it's a forced humourless noise that hurts my ears. "Emily was dying for crying out loud of course I had to do something."

"What I'm trying to say is that you embraced one of your powers as a vampire. Finally my son is becoming everything I wanted him to be." I can picture Lilies sadistic grin in my mind. A deep shiver travels through my body.

"Just because I saved someone I care for does not mean I have come to terms with what I am Lily." Shawn sounds angry. "And I'm not your son so never call me that again." I've never seen him lose his temper before.

"Shawn, calm down." Stefan's voice sounds from behind them.

"No Stefan." Shawn is now shouting. "I won't calm down because I hate who I am and you all know that. I hate the fact that ever since I drenched myself in Emily's blood I can't do anything without thinking about sinking my fangs into her skin. I don't know how to make it stop." He says that last bit in a whisper. It's harsh to my ears, filled with so much distain I want nothing more than to go to him but I wait. It wouldn't do me any good to interfere Shawn too early especially when there's so much guilt in his voice.

"It's ok Shawn." Stefan pleads and I can imagine him standing in-between me and Shawn like a barrier.

"No, it really isn't ok Stefan." Shawn laughs that again laughs. "Right now all I want to do is go over there and bite her until there's nothing left. I've tried controlling this, believe me I have, but it's not helping. Fuck it's been over a year now and I still haven't tamed this monster in me. When will it end for Christ sake?"

"I don't have time for this Shawn, not again. I have business to attend to out of town." Lily ignores Shawn's moment of weakness, her tone laced with annoyance. It sounds like she's moving out of the room when she continues, her voice getting distant. "Stefan, make sure Damon doesn't kill our guest downstairs while I'm gone."

I hear the front door slam a second later. The atmosphere in the room softens with Lilies presence gone. I choose now to open my eyes. The bright glare of the lights making me wince until they get used to it. I was right about my eyesight also being enhanced and that Stefan is acting as a human barrier between Shawn and me.

"Emily, I'd suggest you go upstairs now, slowly." Stefan says not unlocking his stare from Shawn's. They're both tense as shit. Shawn's breath is coming faster and I just now that if he opened his mouth I'd see those fangs he keeps hidden.

I ignore Stefan. I don't know why I do it, I'm blaming Shawn's blood in my system, but I'm standing from my position on the couch and walking towards Shawn in seconds. Stefan grabs my arm in a grip I know will bruise when I go to pass him but with a tug he releases me. Shawn's eyes are now on me, watching as I stop in front of him. His fists are bunched into fists at his side and he's shaking. He lets out a ragged breath and yep, those sharp, intimidating fangs poke through the small gap in-between his lips.

"Emily, please." Stefan says from somewhere behind me. "He won't be able to control himself until his blood has left your system."

"Why?" I ask meeting Shawn' gaze head on. I think he flinches slightly but it's so faint I'm not positive it wasn't my mind playing tricks on me.

"Your bloods have mixed, a vampires and a humans, until it leaves your system there'll be an almost unbearable urge for him to drain you. He won't be able to stop himself being so young."

"So Tyler would be the same?" I ask.

"Yes," Stefan answers, closer to me this time. "He's being kept downstairs though, in a cell, with Damon. He can't hurt you."

"Shawn," I start, taking both of his fisted hands in mine. "I trust you."

"Why?" Shawn laughs his sharp teeth looking fierce in the sharp lighting. His eyes are dark as they watch me. "I will hurt you Emily."

I shrug probably because Shawn needs to be proven wrong. I might be human but I'm not weak. I know how to defend myself. I'll go out fighting if I have to. Shawn needs someone strong to lean on when he doubts himself. I know I'm an idiot for thinking I could ever be stronger than him but I really do trust this boy.

"I trust you Shawn." I lean up to kiss him on the cheek. I do it slowly as I do his shaking hands loosen in mine. His fingers thread through mine, his warm breath tickles my cheek as I kiss him. He smells faintly like aftershave and body soap. He tastes in a sharp breath and a shudder seems to take over his whole body before he pulls back to look at him. His fangs are gone and a small smile takes over his face.

"I'm sorry to break this moment up guys but Damon's going to need some help with Tyler downstairs." Stefan says from behind us drawing said moment to a close sooner than I would have liked.

"Shawn?" I ask softly. My hands stilled gripped in his large ones but no longer in a death grip more of a loose tender hold.

"I'm ok Em," he nods before his eyes flick to Stefan over my shoulder. "Sorry..."

"We've all been there bro," Stefan shrugs. "I'll admit some struggle more than others but we've all been in your shoes at some point in our lives. A lot still are it's just whether you have the determination to fight the darkness or give in to it. I'll meet you downstairs." Stefan smiles at us both before leaving the room. He's a lot more chilled out than I originally thought he was. I think he just wants to protect his family. Damon, however, that hasn't been determined yet. I think he might just be a born psychopath but I'm sure I'll find out soon enough.

"You don't have to go down there Em," Shawn says pulling me to a gentle stop when I start to follow Stefan out of the room. He looks anxious; his brows crease together causing a worry line to appear in the centre of his forehead. I'm sure it's because whatever is happening downstairs is something I won't forget lightly and he's scared I might look at him differently. I won't though.

"I'm going down there Shawn. I want to find out who's behind all of this. I don't want my family getting hurt like so many others already have been. Tyler isn't the same person he was he's being brainwashed into thinking the way he is and I want to know who did it."

"Ok but promise me you'll stay out of Damon's way." He almost whispers a pleading look on his face. "I think what we have could blossom into something amazing and I can't lose you just yet."

"I promise but only if you promise me the same thing." I smile up at him.

"I can't-"

"Please," I interrupt.

Sighing Shawn nods. "I promise not to do anything. I'll be by your side the whole time."

With that we follow the shadow of Stefan's footsteps downstairs to the basement. I don't know why I supposed considering they're vampires but I quickly find out their basement isn't just a regular room no, it has freaking cells built into the walls with chains and shit. And for the millionth time since the Salvatore's came into my life I can't help but think what the hell have I gotten myself into.

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