Wherever you are (Michael Clifford)

Chapter 42

If I were you guys I would just sit and listen to

-you and I- one direction

On repeat whilst reading this, I did and it made it all the more emotional.

I woke up in violently shaking arms and loud noises.

The light hurt my eyes when they flutter open, everything's confusing, why am I here?

A loud voice was echoing the unusually bright room and ringing through my ears.

It was Michael's voice, and he was shouting so damn loud.

"SOMEBODY? DOCTOR? NURSE?" He was running down the bright white corridors carrying me bridal style.

I heard my mum running behind, loud sobs escaping from her.

Everything comes to fast and I try to make sense of what is happening.

"Michael." I whisper. My mouth is dry and I feel like I can't speak loud enough for him to hear me.

"It's ok Han it's ok, your going to be ok." He looks down at me, tears streaming down his face.

My heart aches at the sight of him, I cling on tighter to him to try and comfort him.

I suddenly become aware of how sore my stomach is and try and hold back a scream.

"Michael my stomach. It hurts so much I can't do this." I cry out, still hardly able to speak and Michael lets out another sob, running faster and trying to comfort me at the same time.

"SOMEBODY PLEASE HELP," he shouts out so desperately and my mum just continues to cry.

"Mum." I reach for her and she hurries over to me.

"We are finding you help." she says so rushed and I try to reassure her that I'm ok, or at least I will be. I want to talk to her and try and calm everything down.

"Put her on this bed, were going to need to take her to get some tests done, this seems pretty serious." a tall women spoke extremely quickly and I groan loudly as the pain comes even more sharp.

I hate how everyone is talking about me as If I'm not here.

"Ok I need to know what happened." the nurse speaks.

"I don't know she just stretched to get something and blacked out."

"Has she been experiencing pain anywhere?" the nurse asks Michael as she continues to wheel me a little to fast round corners, I feel dizzy.

"Uhh I'm pretty sure she has in her stomach but she never told any of us" his voice is shaky and I grab his hand at the side of the bed and squeeze it.

"Have you two been sexually active with no protection?" she asks and my mum glares at Michael.

"No." he states

"You have to be honest with me here be-,"

"NO OK, IM TELLING THE TRUTH NOW HURRY UP AND HELP HER." Michael cuts her off and she nods, wheeling the bed faster.

I feel a stab at the side of my arm and then everything goes black again.

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Michael's p.o.v

"FUCK." I scream, banging my fists off of the wall.

How could I not fucking tell she was sick. Those times where she blamed it on cramp or whatever, it was all fucking lies.

I should have been there for her and I should have known.

I'v let her down so much In the past and I feel like I'm running out of time and I don't know why.

I love her. I love her so fucking much and I feel like she is being taken away from me slowly.

I can't let anything take her away from me, I can't loose her again, it happens to much. Bad things always happen to us, it's always brought us closer together but how can we be brought close together when no one in this fucking hospital will let me anywhere near her.

She looked so helpless just laying in my arms.

I'm used to seeing her full of life, always happy around me. Seeing her lifeless killed me, it was so soul destroying.

I think back to the times were she looked like she was in pain. Why would she hide it?

Hannah's mum just sat and cried, cup of coffee In hands. It's clear that she isn't going to stop shaking.

I walk over to her and hug her protectively, I don't know how to reassure her but I can at least comfort her.

I wish Hannah was here for both of us.

After what seemed like hours and hours of waiting a nurse appeared.

"Who's here for Hannah?" She says in the very small waiting room with only a few people. I'm immediately annoyed by her voice.

Hannah's mum and I immediately stand up and follow the nurse who is motioning for us to join her.

We walk in to the room and Hannah is laying in the bed with all sorts of wires connected to her.

"Hannah is sleeping right now and I thought I should tell you's what the test results show before she wakes up. Just In order for you's to be there for her." the nurse says not meeting our eyes.

I begin to panic, looking between Hannah and the nurse.

"Well!" I almost shout and Hannah's mum places a hand on my arm as if telling me to calm down.

She may be telling me to calm down, but I can see how much she is fidgeting and biting her nails. Not to mention that her hands are still shaking against me.

"Well, Hannah has an Appendix carcinoid Tumor." she pauses and examines us both.

Her voice is immediate and tense, and I feel like I'm going to pass out.

What does that even mean, what the fuck.

"She's lucky I promise! It's only located at the tip of the appendix about 2 centimetres, and she has a low risk of it spreading." she speaks softly, trying to reassure us.

I look over at Hannah's mum. The colour has drained from her face and her lip is trembling.

"Wait what is this?"

"Well it's a type of cancer."