Wherever you are (Michael Clifford)

Play it cool

"So, what do we do?"

Michael asks the simple question that there are so many answers too.

I don't know what to do, I'm so annoyed at Jake that it hurts, Part of me see's that he must love me that much that he doesn't want anyone else to have me, but Michael didn't have me as much as Jake did. I repeatedly told Jake that he is my boyfriend and Michael is my Best friend.

I already know these things but I get so angry and keep going through the different possibilities of what he is thinking in my head.

The thing is with Jake is that a lot of people have him, he flirts with a lot of girls and I have never really felt that he personally belonged to me.

The thing is with Michael is that he was mine. No one else knew him like I did, no one knew how he felt about things or the way his mind worked like I did, my heart flutters at the thought and I clear my throat as Michael looks over at me, his eyes flutter to my lips, then to my eyes and all to quick back to his hands.

I just want to beat some sense in to jake, I'm pretty sure Michael feels the same way.

"I don't know Michael." I simply state the truth.

I don't want to loose jake, I don't want To loose Michael, they don't want to loose each other, so why does Jake have to make it so difficult, there's nothing going on between Michael and I, he can't just split us apart.

We decided to skip school, so we now sit in Starbucks, in a comfortable silence.

I was just embracing his presence, it felt good to have him back, I missed him so much. If I missed him for near enough a week how would I feel permanently? I'm guessing lost.

After what felt like not long enough Michael spoke up.

"There's no use in pretending we don't care about him despite what he done."

"I know Michael," I sigh fed up with the situation.

"Well maybe we should just pretend we don't know? See each other out of school, In private, play along for a little while."

I think about it for a second, going through the process in my head.

"It's not a terrible idea, but I don't know if it will end well," I bite my lip In thought and Michael tears his eyes away.

"Come on Han, I don't want to have to be without you" He says and the butterfly's swim around my stomach again.

"I don't want to be without you either," I say in almost a whisper looking down in an attempt to hide the blush that has taken over my cheeks, damn it Hannah.

"Sooo... What do you say?" He puts his hand on my thigh and I jump slightly, the familiar heat spreading through my body.

"Okay, we can work out where we meet and stuff without Jake knowing, but if he finds out, then he will leave both of us." Michael looks me straight in the eyes, his bright green eyes are such a distraction to me, I get lost in them instantly, forgetting about the trouble with Jake and appreciating these moments with Michael.

"At least if that happens, we have each other." He smiles a little.

"That's true," I place my hand on top of his In agreement.

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I'm walking to jakes now.

I told Michael I would text him later and tell him what happens but I'm nervous as heck.

Michael's plan isn't a bad idea at all, I'm just anxious to see if he will believe it.

"Hey Han." He answers the door and brings me into a hug. The hug feels foreign and fake making my body tense. I don't wait too long to pull myself free.