Lucky Mistake (1D FanFiction)

Chapter 8

!*WARNING*! Some things in this chapter may upset you, this chapter isn't for the faint hearted. But read on if you feel brave enough :)

Chapter 8

Louis’ P.O.V.

She just kissed me. So what if it was only on my cheek and only lasted more than a second, she still kissed me. I felt tingles from where her soft lips pressed onto my skin, leaving me in a state of shock on the roof. If it felt this good when she kissed me on the cheek, how would it feel to do the real thing? Stop thinking like that Louis! You're still not over Eleanor, and you know that.

But Jade is perfect for you.

Shut up brain! What do you know anyway?

Everything you do, stupid.

Whatever.

Don’t you “Whatever” me!

Am I not just “Whatever”ing myself?

Exactly my point. Jeez, you need to spend more time with Liam, you might learn a thing or two.

I don’t want to spend time with Liam, I want to spend time with Jade!

You never wanted to hang out with Eleanor this bad.

I know, ok? Why can’t you just agree with me for once?

Because I am you. If I don’t agree with you, you don’t agree with yourself.

That makes no sense.

Hey, you're the one who said it.

While I was battling with my mind I descended down Everest, and into my apartment. I ignored all of the boys and went into my room. I jumped onto the bed full force, only to be cushioned by a body already lying on my bed.

‘Bloody hell Lou, no need to body-slam me. This isn't WWE.’ Her sickly voice rang uncomfortably through my ears.

‘Who let you in?’ I asked, surprised.

‘That ugly prostitute in the sweats.’ She replied calmly. Ugly? Prostitute? Jade was about as far away as you could get from both of those things.

‘What are you doing here Eleanor?’ I asked, getting off of her immediately. She was still as beautiful as ever, only now she wore a confused look.

She’s not as beautiful as Jade.

Jesus, not you again?

‘Can I not come and visit my boyfriend?’ she tilted her head to the side and cocked her eyebrow.

‘Sorry, Harry’s in the other room.’ I spat bitterly at her. She flinched and looked judgingly at me.

‘Are you still mad about that? I thought you’d be over it by now.’  She huffed.

‘Over it?’ I got angry, ‘You cheated on me, twice, and with my best friend? Couldn't think of a better way to hurt me, no?’

‘I rang your Dad but he said he was content with wanking into a sock.’ She smiled smugly at me. I saw red and could feel my blood boil. How dare she pull my parents into this?!

‘Right, that’s it. You are a skanky, little whore who only cares about herself and her precious money. Just go off to a strip club and apply for a job, because we all know that’s where you’ll be in a few years.’ I sucked on my teeth to stop myself from hitting her. I would never do that, no matter what she said. Not because I couldn't do that to her in particular, I just couldn't do that in general. I found it hard enough to hit a guy, never mind a girl.

‘Harry told you what I said, didn’t he? Did he actually believe it? You’re a gullible bunch aren’t you? Especially you, thinking that I ever loved you. I only used you to boost my career, and now that it has, I don’t need you anymore. I don’t have to put up with you whining over how tired you are after a show, or lie about how much I love you. I don’t know how anyone could ever love you Louis. You're so annoying. The only thing you have is comedy. You add nothing to the band vocally, you're not nearly as good as the others. All you do is sell posters and add humour, but you can’t live off that your whole life. It’s only a matter of time before they kick you out.’ She got up and went to the doorframe, leaving me with half a heart and tears streaming down my face. ‘Thank you for your cooperation; it was nice doing business with you.’

She flipped her hair off of her shoulder and exited the room and the house. I could hear her car leave the car park from the open window. That’s all I was to her, a business partner? She was using me? It was all an act? How could she be she heartless?

I've been called annoying before, mostly by Liam, but it hurt the most coming from a woman who I thought I loved. Was I really that hard to love? Was any of our relationship real, or was it all a sham? The more I think about it the more depressed I become.

I get up and make my way to the bathroom, my shoulders shuddering every now and then due to the sobs that erupted out of me when I could contain them no longer. I reached into the drawer and pulled out a razor.

Don’t do this, this won’t help anyone.

Of course it will! It will help everyone because they won’t have to put up with me anymore. The band will be better off without me; I will never be good enough.

Jade said she will always care about you, remember?

But what if she’s only using me as well?

She would never do that!

We thought Eleanor would never do that too.

Somewhere deep down inside of you, you knew she wasn't the right girl.

Ignoring the thoughts coming into my head I pressed the razor into my wrist. I felt a shocking pain shoot up my arm and hot sticky blood seep out of my damaged wrist. I let out a low grumble at the pain as I pressed in again. I was losing a lot of blood now and felt very lightheaded. I switched hands and cut the other wrist three times until I couldn't bare the pain anymore. It felt good to feel the release of pent up frustration, but I knew this wasn't right. This wasn't going to make my problems go away, only one person could, and she will never want me. Why would she? I'm a depressed wreck and she’s a light hearted beauty, why would she lower her potential to my standard? She can do so much better than me, because I will never be good enough.

I yelped in pain as I fell to my knees. I heard one of my kneecaps crack and a blinding pain shot through my leg. The door swung open to reveal a shocked Jade.

‘Louis?! Holy shit! HARRY! ANYONE! CALL 999!’ she screamed. She knelt beside me and held my limp body in her comforting arms. ‘Louis, don’t leave me, Jesus Louis, why did you do this? You have so much to live for! Lou, don’t go, I need you… I… I lo-’

That’s when it all went black.

I know it's rather short, but i quite like it :) BET YOU WEREN'T EXPECTING THAT, NOW WERE YA? Or you were, in that case, you're a physic XD

Comment/Vote/Fan?? Pwetty Pweez?? A xx