Detention (under construction)

Regret

Johnnys pov:

Hayden holds my shoulder and squeezes it. I don't say anything before I barge past him walking off. He follows me walking behind me.

H: hey you didn't tell me what happened-
J: she said no.

I say bluntly.

H: how are you?
J: how the fuck do you think I am?

I say stopping to face him now.

A: Johnny calm down.

I look down at my hands which were now in fists. I feel a strong burning inside of me as I turn to look at her with a glare.

J: I'm perfectly calm

I say my voice steady but cold. She raises her eyebrows at me and Lauren sighs.

L: look you can just call her
J: you don't understand
A: what is it that we don't understand Johnny

I stay quiet but she carries on.

A: oh you want us to understand how you were too much of a coward to tell her you liked her so instead you hurt her?
H: Annie.
J: stay out of this Hayden
A: like I said, coward.
J: oh and you're not?

She steps forward like she is daring me to continue. I could see the hurt in her eyes and I knew she hasn't forgiven me for hurting Kenzie. I unclench my fists and shrug.

J: I mean you couldn't even keep Hayden off your friends but sure we can all talk about my problems

She stays quiet stunned at what I said. I know I was only using this as a way to get all the anger out of me but I don't stop.

J: first Jayden then Kenzie who is it going to be next?

I make a show of scanning our friends and smirk as soon as I look at Lauren.

J: hey what happened to Layden?

Lauren scoffs and Annie goes red.

A: say one more word Johnny I swear I'll-
J: I mean we can ask Hayden what lipgloss Kenzie had on if you need any more proof that you can't really talk-

Annie slaps me in the face. I take a step towards her, not really knowing why before Carson grabs me.

C: Johnny it's Annie.

I look at her with tears in her eyes and she shoves me.

A: you're a dick.

She says shaking her head before she runs off. Hayden grabs hold of me.

H: you idiot you can't go round attacking everyone just because you got hurt

I shove past him walking away. Hayden grabs hold of me again and I turn punching him in the face. Brandon rushes over pulling us away. I find myself at the entrance of the airport now, not looking back as I get a call from 'mack n cheese'. I sigh picking it up.

K: Johnny how are you?

She says this softly, like she is making sure to choose her words carefully.

J: I'm fine.

I say this opening my car sitting down in the front seat. The phone goes quiet for a while before she speaks again.

K: are you sure?

God she knows me so well even if she wasn't here.

J: yes
K: you sound mad
J: look I said I'm fine
K: if this is about me-
J: I SAID IM FINE KENZIE
K: okay.
J: not everything revolves around you for Gods sake.
K: Johnny I never meant it like that okay? I'm trying to be a good best friend here.
J: best friend.
K: are we not friends?

Her voice sounds desperate and I sigh again.

J: look Kenzie we both know how I feel about you so why act like being friends is going to work? let's just end this.
K: no Johnny
J: I'm not going to just sit here for my feelings to get hurt over and over again by you Kenzie I'm done with that.
K: Johnny I wanted to trust you but-
J: you want to talk about trust?

The phone goes quiet again.

K: fine be like that.
J: bye Mackenzie

I cut the call and put my head against the wheel. I didn't know why I felt like this. And why no one will get that I just want to be left alone. And the only person that I want to talk to right now, probably hates me too.