Something like love

Chapter 23

i woke up with my head on his chest and my hand resting on his steady heart. I really didnt want to get up, he was so warm and comfortable but i really had to pee too. so i gently raised up from him and walked quietly from the bathroom. i fixed my hair in the mirror beforebwalking out to see that dereck wasnt on the bed anymore.

"Dereck?" i called

"Yes?" he says in a sleepy voice while wraping his arms around my waist and putting his face in my neck and takes a deep breath.

"i just wanted to know where you were" I say and turn around to face him

"I'll never be too far" He says and smiles

Okay yes this is weird but i was paying extra attention to his breath and... He doesnt have morning breath! yes i was smelling his breath to know what his breath smelled like in the morning. But anyway his smile was just so intoxicating and his eyes were hypnotizing. I lean into him and kiss him softly. he tightens his grip on my waist and pulls me closer into him. our lips start to move in time with each other and i wrap my arms around his neck and pull him closer. He moves his hands down to the small of my back and grips my shirt, his fingers run across the small of my back which made me tingle inside and grind on him. His eyes turn black and a low deep growl comes from him. he picks me up by my butt and walks over to the edge of the bed, then leans down and lays on top of me. he slides his tongue in my mounth and rubs my thighs. I grab the hair on the back of his head to have more control, then i grab his shirt and bring him closer to me. He moves his lips from mine to my cheek then to my neck, he kisses and nibbles on my neck and it sends electricity through me. He starts to nibble a bit too hard and starts to feel like a bite.

"D-Dereck" i say but i comes out a whimper, he growls deeply

"Dereck" I say and start to push him off

"Dereck!" i yell, he looks up at me with wide frightened eyes. He gets of of me and starts pacing infront of me while running his fingers through his hair, messing it up over and over.

"Did i hurt you?" he asks in a concerned voice and starts to look me over

"No" I say and push some hair behind my ear and push his hands away

"Im sorry" he says and whimpers

"its fine" I say

"No, Its not" he says and goes to grab his keys

"where are you going?" I ask and get up from his bed

"To take you home, lets go" He says while not meeting my eyes

"o-okay" I say , confused about whats happening

He walks me down stairs, his hand holding mine tightly which sends me signs that he isnt mad at me, but whats wrong? I think to myself.

the drive to my house is long and the silence is heartbreaking. My mind keeps telling me that he's mad at me because i stopped him, or telling me that i made things akward, or that imjust waisting his time, if im not going tto let him be my mate. thats right. i am a waste of time, thats why jase broke up with me in the first place.

Because i was a waste of his time, am i a waste of everyones time?