Newly Married to Kris

You Don't Get It.

*I won't be able to update as fast, because I'm going back to public school instead of home school. Scary )))))))))): Summer is soon, so just wait!*

*Rachel's pov*

I didn't even feel like I had drank anything. My mind was all over the place! Luhan kissed me, might I say deeply, Kris saw and walked off, he's all out at 3am alone. Tao isn't even saying anything to me or Luhan. I didn't even want to kiss Luhan! He's drunk. I'm far from sane now. Luhan, I have no idea where he is. I ran to Tao to help sort this all. He's wasted, but I don't have a better idea...

"Tao! Do you know where Kris is?"

"No. Why don't you go get Luhan. You seem to care a hell of alot more about him than Kris...your husband."

I was getting angry..mostly frustrated.

"Don't say that! I love Kris. He's my husband. Just because Luhan is my friend, doesn't mean anything. This shouldn't even concern you!"

"I don't think you realize how much you blow off Kris. He always comes to me telling me how much he feels betrayed. You're a bitch."

At that point I almost lost it. But I just said to myself that he was just drunk. He probably would have still said that even if he wasn't drunk, though. 

I walked out of the bar looking for Kris. I'm worried about Luhan too, but told myself that Kris is more important. I yelled for him, walking all around panicking. I couldn't stop worrying. He's all alone completely drunk at 3am wondering around. 

I eventually got to a park not too far from the bar. I saw a couple of people so I walked around the park searching for him. 

"Kris!!"

I hopelessly shouted out his name with tears in my eyes.

"It wasn't me!"

I screamed to myself kneeling to the floor sobbing. I was whaling. Part of it was from worrying his safety, the rest about what had happened. I picked myself up, with still tears in my eyes. I had to keep  searching. 

After awhile, I started to think he wasn't in the park. But I looked around one more time. I was surrounded by darkness. Then I heard light sobbing from  behind me. I turned around, and didn't see anyone. I looked harder, and gazed into the dark shadows of the trees. 

"Kris?"

I heard sobbing again. I walked towards the sound, and saw Kris bundled up in a ball. He was uncontrollably crying. 

"Kris"

He wouldn't look at me. 

"Kris, look at me! Answer!"

He just whaled even more. I have never seen him cry before.

"It wasn't my fault! You have to believe me. Luhan is drunk! And so are you. That's why you're upset."

Kris still didn't look at me, but answered.

"That's not why I'm upset. Not just because I'm "drunk". Rachel, you don't care about me at all. You say you love me, you say i'm your loving husband, but you don't even care about me. It's obvious. So just s-stop. Save it. And I can't even believe that Luhan and you kissed! That made it clear that you don't love me or care about me. I'm done. I'm not worth your precious time. Even if I do love you."

That made me tear up. 

"He kissed me, honey. I would never kiss him. I only want to taste your lips."

He started crying harder.

I knelt down and layed next to him curling up to him wraping my arms around him as he cried. 

"You're my only love, Kris. I care about you, I need you. That's what loving someone is about."

He didn't do anything but sob. Until later, he cried himself to sleep. I stayed up on the dewy grass grabbing him. Holding him like he was helpless. He's too strong to be helpless. Even at his dark times like this. Even if he wasn't my main issue right now, I couldn't help but have a thought of Luhan. But I wasn't going to think about him. I'm here for Kris right now. He's the only thing that's important to me. Not just right now, but forever. I never really realized how he felt. Maybe I am a big problem to him. I don't want him to feel this way, ever. After an hour of Kris sleeping in my arms, I fell asleep holding him. 

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It was 6am now, i've only gotten about 2 hours of sleep. We were asleep under a tree in a random park far away from home. This isn't good. I remember last night and what happened, I just hope we can move past it. I saw dried tears on his pale cheeks. It hurt to see that. I squeezed him tightly, holding onto him. I kissed his cheek and he wrinkled his nose and opened his eyes slightly.

"Kris, let's go. We are going to catch colds, baby."

"Rachel?"

"Yes?"

"We need to get home. I feel sick."

"Okay, lets walk to the car. I hope the others made it home, though."