Stigma || Kim Namjoon

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One morning I told you that I'll come
pick you up from college and you were excited.
I closed the book store and made my way towards your college.
I waited for a few minutes in front of the gates with my hands in my pockets as
I rocked my body slightly
back and forth because I started to get impatient.
I finally saw you walk out but you weren't alone.
The guy had his arm around your shoulder.
You saw me and smiled brightly as you ran towards me.

'Namjoon! This is my friend Yoongi!'
You said excitedly as you were standing in front of me.
I don't know why at that moment I didn't like him.
I just felt uncomfortable when I saw him and a bad feeling hit me.
'You're Namjoon. Soo Yun always talks about you.' Yoongi said as he placed his hand on your shoulder.
I scoffed.
He didn't do anything to me but I didn't like him.
Especially because he was your friend and he was a man so that made me jealous.
I pushed his arm off your shoulder gently.
'What's your problem?' He asked me bluntly as he crossed his arms over his chest.
Your smile dropped.

'Guys stop it.' You said.
'Soo Yun, I can't believe you're friends with this amateur.' He said.
'What did you say?' I asked furiously. 'You heard me.' He answered.
'I'm her boyfriend not her friend.' I corrected him.
'Well Soo Yun didn't tell me so I don't think she thinks of you as her boyfriend.' He was trying to provoke me. 'We don't need to tell every single person what our relationship is maybe she thought she told you.' I tried to explain your situation.

'Or maybe she doesn't care about you.' He rolled his eyes. 'Want to say that again?'
I wanted to just punch him but you stood in front of me as you placed your hands
on my chest stopping me.
'Namjoon stop it.' You said as you glared at me. I put my hand down.
'Yoongi, I'm sorry.' You apologized. 'You don't need to apologize.
I'll get going. See you tomorrow.' He told you then left.

You looked up at me in disappointment then walked away.
I started calling your name but you kept ignoring me.
As we arrived in front of the book store
you kept walking. 'Soo Yun, where are you going?' I asked.
'I'm going home.' You answered without even looking back.
I jogged towards you and grabbed you from your wrist. 'What are you doing?!' You asked loudly. I dragged you back towards the book store and opened the door with my other hand.
'Namjoon let go of me.' You kept struggling to get out of my grip. I locked the door behind us and said 'You said you're going home. We're here.'

'Namjoon..' you started. 'Didn't you say that this is our house and you wanted to live here forever?' I asked.
'That doesn't mean I forgive you for being rude to Yoongi.' You said.
'It's ok I'll find a way for you to forgive me later.' I said and I kissed you.
I admit how I reacted was childish but I couldn't help it. I was jealous. I love you.

To: Soo Yun
From: Namjoon
April/21/1938