Stigma || Kim Namjoon

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My birthday is a few days after
our anniversary.
Our first year anniversary came and
we celebrated by going out of town just to see the ocean.
It's one of my favorite memories with you.
A few days passed,
It was a day before my birthday. I didn't really care about it so I considered it as any usual day.
I got up early opened up the book store and did my usual schedule.
I felt tired that day and not well but
I tried to endure the pain my body felt and forced myself that it's not time for me to get sick as if I could control it.

You were at school at that time. So this was before you went to college.
I placed my elbows on the desk and massaged my temples.
You came back from school and asked me 'Namjoon are you ok?'
I didn't raise my head and gestured with my hand 'I'm ok.'
'No you're not. Let's go upstairs.' You said as you placed your hand on my back.
I decided to listen to you and
I stood up with your help.
You put my arm around your shoulder and I slightly leaned on you.
You helped me get into my bed
and covered me with the blankets.

You turned around and I held your hand 'Where are you going?' I asked.
'I'm going to close the store and comeback.' You said as you kissed my forehead and left.
I fell asleep and woke up many hours later. It was dark.
I felt a wet cloth on my head and I removed it with my hand.
You were by my bed holding my other hand as you were sat on the floor with your head on the edge of the bed.
You were asleep.
'I'm lucky to have you.' I thought to myself.
You woke up and our eyes met. 'How are you feeling?' You asked. 'I feel better.' I said weakly.
'It's 12:03 am.' You said. 'Wow I slept for a very long time.' I said.
You shook your head and smiled.

'Happy birthday.' You whispered and kissed my cheek.
To me those two words made me happy just because you were the one who said them.
'I love you Soo Yun.' 'I love you Namjoon.'
I really miss you.
You mean the world to me. I love you and always will.

To: Soo Yun
From: Namjoon
May/23/1938