who you are

Part 19

It was snack time and I went to go sit with the rest of my friend group where I found two new people. Their names were Tiffany and Isla. We said hi and started talking and the bell rang after what seemed like a few minutes. During lunch, I was at my locker when Megan came up to me. "Alexandra I'm sorry for our fight this morning. I just want you to know that just because you have a boyfriend now doesn't mean that you get to push us away," she said.

"Is that why you're acting this way? I'm finally happy for once and you just feel that it's bad that I'm happy so you want to strip it away from me. I don't think that's what friends do Megan," I told her. "No, that's not it I just want you to be able to talk to me. Just because you tell him doesn't mean that you can't still talk to me. Alex, please I really don't want to lose this friendship because I don't know how you are feeling if you don't talk to me," she said.

"I understand I'll try to remember that," I told her. Then we hugged each other and walked down to our lunch table where the rest of the group was and had a great lunch. Fall break came soon after and that's when my birthday fell and I really wanted to invite my friends over for a party but my parents told me no because it was too much work to have a party but my brother got a party with pretty much the whole grade but I guess that's how life goes.

When I came back to school things were the same as they had been before break but after a week I went to our table one day but nobody was there I tried to text them but nobody responded then Megan came to the table and sat down like nothing was happening which was really weird because usually, she would ask where everyone was but she didn't do that. We ended up just eating our lunch in silence. I left before the bell rang and headed to class.

The next day came and nobody showed up not even Megan. The next day I walked past our table but nobody was there so I decided to go to the library. After about a week of this, I slowly stopped eating I was really depressed. I didn't eat for ten days and when I tried to eat again I threw up. I started only eating at dinner time but I would always puke afterward. I didn't care I didn't want to be here. Who would after losing all your closest friends for an unknown reason?

After about a month I was left home alone I texted Daniel goodbye grabbed a knife and before I could get more than a centimeter cut he was there next to me with tears in his eyes pulling the knife out of my hands and hugging me. I started to cry. I didn't want to leave him but I couldn't take this from my old friends anymore. Daniel and I just sat there in silence for a while and then he asked me why I did it and I told him about this disaster at school.