Caught In The Gray

Chapter Nine

Entry Six

I can't help but think of her. I haven't seen her much over the past few days but she lingers in my thoughts; my spare moments drifting to her. I don't know if she shares my attraction but it's there, rapidly reminding me.

It's hard not to notice her, she doesn't even know the energy she radiates. I have all these unfamiliar urges about her, to protect her, to claim her, to do...I don't know.

All I know is that I won't be able to do nothing for much longer. The desire is getting stronger and I feel like I'm drowning without her, without knowing her taste, without knowing her body, without knowing what makes her...

I'm going to do something soon, I just hope that she doesn't push me away.

Today I have the internship and I'm excited. I'm walking to the Base where hopefully I'll be able to get a card for the Trainst. I haven't talked much to Alaric, he's been really busy which I'm not complaining about.

I haven't seen Sebastian. We haven't had a chance to talk about it and I'm glad although I know I can't avoid it forever. I like Sebastian but I can't help feeling guilty even through the kiss was great.

I sigh and walk through the doors. I wander around for a few minutes before I sigh, finding nothing. I don't have much time before I should be there and I'm not going to be late. I walk around, trying to find either Sebastian or Alairc or someone who can help me.

I turn around and go the other way, maybe that'll be better. I think everyone is in meetings or something because the hallways seem unusually empty. Someone rushing by stops when they see me. They grab my arm and pull me into the nearest door which happens to be a small storage closet.

"What the hell? What the fuck is wrong with you?"

"Shut up, he'll kill us if he hears," he says and I nod. I don't know why I have to be quiet, but I trust him. The only thing I can hear is the rapid beat of my heart. After a few minutes, I hear voices as people walk by.

"Why did you pull me into the closet?" I ask quietly, I can barely see as Sebastian runs a hand through his hair. I can barely move, the closet is small and we're pressed together, I can feel the fast beating of heart. I think mine is just as fast.

"Because the Military Commander is with some important figure and everyone was supposed to stay the hell away from him well they went on the tour," Sebastian says quietly and I nod.

"Can we leave? I have my Internship today and I need to leave soon. I was trying to find someone who could give me a card for the Transit," I say.

"Shit, we can't go anywhere for a few hours, the Military Commander seemed about ready to kill someone if he found them wandering around." He says and I frown.

"What about the tunnels?" I ask and Sebastian thinks about it for a few moments.

"That'll probably work," he says and I nod. He feels around on the wall for the panel. "It should be here," he murmurs and pulls the panel away. We both go in and he pulls the panel back. I follow him as we move through the tunnel. I have to squint to see him. He takes a turn and I almost miss it.

I grab the back of his shirt, he tenses for a minute before relaxing. We move through the rest of the tunnels easier. Sebastian stops and I stumble into him. "The tunnels have a direct path to the Transit but it slopes down, be careful," he says and I nod.

"Okay, thanks," I say. We walk down and heels catch on something, I stumble into him and wrap my arms around his waist for balance. My head is pressed into his back and his arms come up and grip mine. He slowly moves me so that I'm standing front of him, my arms still wrapped around his waist.