Forgetting Mark Tuan [Got7 Fanfiction] Book II: Inlove with Mark Tuan

Seven

Chapter Seven

I was so grumpy the whole day that's why I decided to just go to our company and try to write some songs because Jaebum is telling to write some and give it to him if im already done.

He didnt gave me a deadline that's why I am not working on it. I dont have the motivation to think of a lyrics that will be useful.

When I am already inside the building. I smiled at the people who's greeting me especially to the trainees. If only PD-nim will allow me to go in Los Angeles, I will book a flight immediately. I miss my family so much.

I went inside the elevator and hissed when I saw that my hair is almost wet because of me sweating.

I pulled out my handkerchief inside my pocket and wiped my whole face which made it have some red spots.

"Shit..."

I cursed when Cynthia's necklace fell down on the floor. I gently picked it up and looked at it for awhile checking if there's some damage.

I remember the time where I first got this. I am the one who designed this for Cynthia that's why when I saw the finished product I was so damn happy because it looks so beautiful.

I hoped for the best while holding that necklace. The only thing that is running on my mind that time is that how will I remember Cynthia's happy face as soon as she saw what I got for her but before all of that... I have to tell her what I really fell.

I always joked around about my feelings and I also know that she has an idea about how I feel towards her and I am certain that I do have a chance even if that chance was small and almost impossible, I will still take the risk.

Do you know the feeling when you admire a person so much?

Do you know the feeling when you're willing to get hurt and just hope to be loved in return?

Do you know the feeling when you love someone so much that it hurts?

There are times that I think that we are something special because that's what she's making me feel whenever we are together but I am such a fool for interpreting it in such ways, she's just caring and kind to everybody.

It hurts me everytime. It gets me everytime and it kills me everytime whenever I think that she will never be mine.

I would do anything to get her love, anything and everything just for her little attention. I am that crazy for her at that time and even after she rejected me.

Cynthia is special to me. She's the woman whom I treasured with all of me.

But I got over her, I believe in that. I am already over her. I moved on.

I love Lauren that's the only thing on my mind, Lauren.

How I wasted someone as precious as her. I hurted her.

Who says that cheating is the biggest mistake that you can commit inside a relationship?

I think that the biggest mistake in a relationship is that making your partner feels like she wasnt good enough, that's the biggest mistake.

"Jackson! What the?"

"What? I didnt do anything."

"Let's go, okay? Im so hungry."

I was taken aback when I saw Jackson and Lauren together happily walking side by side with a big smile plastered on their faces.

"Hyung..."

I raised my brows at Jackson and went out of the elevator already. I looked at it when it closed and no one moved. All of us are looking at each other.