Lisa

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by vanja_m03

by vanja_m03

This is the first day of my life
Swear I was born right in the doorway
I went out in the rain
Suddenly everything changed
They're spreading blankets on the beach
Yours is the first face that I saw
I think I was blind before I met you
I don't know where I am
I don't know where I've been
But I know where I want to go
And so I thought I'd let you know
That these things take forever
I especially am slow
But I realize that I need you
And I wondered if I could come home

Mhm mhm

I remembered this song last night . I remember loving it so much .

I watched sun rise again . But this time it was different . I am actually very exited because Lisa is going to come again. Even though she is 10 years old , I like talking to her , she seems very mature. Her brother seems funny though , crazy over his cat Suga . It's a bit weird but cute.

My hands started trembling again , making my head ache and my heart to twitch . Blood started dripping from my mouth . Awful feeling in my mouth , but still the only one. I could swear that sun cried with me every morning , always bloody , always sad . I really want to die . Please let me go . Was I so wrong for wanting a little space for myself ? Why trapping me here ? Wanting to kill myself but not physically , mentally . Mentally eating and destroying myself . Rain started pouring . Hitting the ground hard . Making my heart skip a beat . I wish I could feel her . Feel the rain poising my skin , eating me . I shivered even from my thoughts . I screamed. Screamed as if it was my last . I want out . I want to leave my skin , my mind . It hurts me . It hurts me . Blood still dripping , rain still pouring , let me go . I want to be that rain pouring , I want to see your blood boil . Mine is frozen , let me go . My nails stuck in my arms , blood splashing . I want to dance with the stars , leave me alone . Spoiling my face . I want to take my eyes out . It will still be the same . I only see darkness after all . Destroy me . Please.

Rain stopped . I woke up again . I remember everything that happened this morning . I looked at my arms , not a screech . Always the same. My cheeks always wet . Knees cracking . Head aching. Fingers trembling . Never changing .

I could tell it was noon when I heard Lisa's voice.

- Jimin ? -

- Lisa , you came . - I said trying to sound happy and wiping my tears.

- Of course I did , I promised. - she nodded smiling .

- I told my brother about you . He said I was crazy and that I should stay away from you . -

- From me ? He knows me ? - my heart skipped a beat I swear .

- I think he knows you . He seemed pretty upset when I told him about you . - she said in a low voice I could feel her feel and sudden sadness .

- Do you think ... you can bring him here - I asked trembling

- He is already coming -

- Did you call him ? Lisa. Are you afraid of me ? -

- I don't know. - she whispered.

- I can't harm you . I am literally stuck in the wall . - she laughed at that but quickly her smile dropped - Lisa , are you okay ? -

- I am just afraid my brother might hurt you. -

- I don't think so . He is just worried about you . Don't forget that I am much older than any of your other friends. -

- Yeah , I guess you are right. -

- Of course I am , now , shall we play ? -

- Yeah - she grinned so hard I melted she had a bunny smile .

We played everything we could . We even managed playing hide and seek . I would always seek and she would hide . When I count to 10 she must hide somewhere and I must find her . It was very easy at the beginning but Lisa got better at this so sometimes I felt like it was impossible to find her . But I had my methods . Somehow I would always make her laugh that she would just give herself away. But we had so much fun . I really felt like child . She started calling me ' Jiminie ' . It's very cute . She has a great personality , so peaceful and positive . I wish I could be a kid again .

- Bye Jiminie . Thanks for today. -

- Bye Lisa . I had so much fun today . -

And with that , she left. Lonely again .