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diary (FINALE PT. 3)

- We found his diary.

They say that the silence kills you the most when all you need is a word.

- Did you read it? - Yoongi asked calmly.

- Uh... We had to. - doctor rubbed his head - We weren't sure it was his cause we didn't notice him writing anything. Actually, we didn't think he could. - he said his voice slowly dieing.
- Okay. Can we get it? - Taehyung asked happily.
- Yes, but there are parts who weren't written by him. At least that is what we think. We hoped you could help us. - doctor replied.
- Weren't written by him? I don't understand. - Namjoon wondered.
- Here - he took out the diary from his drawer - let me show you.

- My name is Park Jimin as much as I can remember . I wouldn't call myself a prince , but a lot of people did that , even though our country had no king nor queen . My family , I could call us ' royal ' . We lived in a castle , far away from everyone , it was nice . I heard we 'lived in the past ' , but I could never realize what that meant . I've never been to school , I never had many friends . Only one ... I can't even remember his name . I said I was never allowed to be alone . I truly meant that . When I was very young , I used to sleep with my parents . I loved that . It made me feel loved and special to them . But when I grew older it seemed wrong and boring . So I slept with nannies , guards , sometimes I slept with my friend . I loved those days . I could never forget my friend's face . He was the prettiest boy I' ve ever seen . His personality , always brave , strong , open minded . I looked up to him . Even though he was younger . His family was royal too . But he went to school , he didn't have to be with someone all the time , he had many friends ... but he never left me . I left him .
I remember my mum too . She would never age . I remember her when I was 4 , I remembered her when I was 15 . She never changed . Lot of people said she was a witch , but that couldn't be true . I would've been the first to know , I was her son , right ? But still ... I don't remember her name . I tried so many times ... But I just couldn't remember . I don't remember my father . I know I had one , all I know he was there . I have no memories of his face , body , talk , walk ... nothing .
I know there were a lot of people in the castle , but I can't remember their faces . I am trapped in a wall , thinking about things I know and I repeat them everyday , so I wouldn't forget . Because I forgot a lot . I wish ... I could remember something new ...

The silence dropped after he finished the reading.

- Jimin. Jimin. I know his name. It was Jungkook's lover! - Taehyung yelled suddenly.
- Jungkook had a lover? - Yoongi asked in disbelief, he loved Jungkook the most and this broke his heart that he didn't even know.
- Yes... Well, he told me not to tell you. - Tae replied.
- Where is he?- Jin asked
- I don't know I never met him. -
- Can we get the diary and read it? Maybe then we can help. - Hobi said.
- Sure it's yours anyway. - the doctor said giving the diary to Yoongi.
- Thank you. We are going to call you if we figure out something. -

And with Yoongi's words the boys left the hospital.
- Should we look for Jimin? - asked Jin

- I don't know hyung. He didn't come to the... you know. - Tae replied softly.

- Maybe they broke up? - Hobi asked blankly.

Silence again...

-Let's first read the diary. - Yoongi cut their talk and took the diary. - I bet the doctor didn't read the whole thing.

Since Yoongi took the diary, he was the first one to read it. While reading he tried writing things down, like he was solving a mystery. Which was the exact thing he was doing, solving the mystery of the name Park Jimin. The boys needed 2 weeks to detailly read the whole diary. They gathered around and talked about the things in the diary. Actually, this diary was written by Jungkook, they recognized the writing and the phrases he used to use a lot, but everything was from Jimin's point of view.

The emotions from the diary were hard to handle. Yoongi was the one to handle them the hardest. Everyone knew how much he actually loved the younger, but he never really said anything. Moments of Jungkook's breakdowns were the hardest. Pages were dirty , spoiled by tears, black ink turned to ugly stains , words and letters missing... Pages of long depression... Killing them all slowly. Drowning them deep into his dark mind.

They couldn't find Park Jimin.
It's like he died with him too.

Weeks passing by, boys making a routine. 'Carpe diam' turned to 'Live trough the day'.

-I found out who is Park Jimin. -

His real name is Jeon Jungkook.
Jungkook has no parents.
Jungkook's first doctor is called Eliot.
Jungkook's friend represents all of us.
Jungkook's sister in the diary is the girl he met in the hospital who was a little.
Jimin doesn't exist. They are the same person.

his loneliness and depression made Jimin.

Jimin is the worst of Jungkook.
He is everything what Jungkook was.

- he said taking the diary to read the underlined text. -

I stared at him as I was laying on his chest.
- Jimin.
I hummed softly.
- Are you cursed?
- Yes.
- Does it hurt?
- You don't want to know.

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So this is the end . Thank you.