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what's the thing you want the most

I am on this rollercoaster that never stops. Like literally, my head has been spinning for awhile now. Round and round around my mind. Playing hide and seek with my sanity.
-Eliot, please for god sake, am I crazy? Or am I out of my mind? Or is it just me and my imagination, or better am I that bored? No. I can feel my sanity slipping through my fingers. Running away like a mouse from a cat. Oh, Eliot I wish you could reply just for once in my lifetime. -
I gasped. He is not here.  No one is here. I was alone then, I am now and presumably I will be in the future too. 

The sun was shining brightly, basically burning the ground, destroying the desperate feeling in my heart.  I was watching the birds. Three little birds trying to learn how to fly. 
The first one did great. Flying for a short while but still the little bird was confident and happy. 
The second one was a little afraid. She flew slower and shorter but she did it and in the end the second bird was happy too. 
The third bird was terrified. Little bird trembling and desperately trying to avoid this situation. The biggest bird, probably the mother of the birdies, pushed the little one to fly. The third bird tried moving her wings but it was in vain. The little bird fell and she was dead on sight. Mother and the two little birds just flew away for further training.
I couldn't believe my eyes.
- This is how the world works Eliot? 
I whispered in fear.

- You seem off Jimin, what's wrong? 
- Sun of..  What the hell???!!! What are you doing here???And if this is another hallucination just please leave this is just getting it worse. 
I screamed. God he scared me. I didn't see him coming at all.
- Jimin what hallucination? What are you talking about? I am so confused.
You think yesterday was hallucination ?  Oh Jimin. -
He put his hands on the wall, but I could feel him touching me. I teared up because I didn't know what was real anymore.
- Jimin last night was real. So is this. -
We suddenly appeared in that same room. Same bed just this time the bed sheets were red.
He hugged me and pulled me closer to him. I love it when he holds me.
- Mmm... Jungkook -
I hummed.
- Shh, sleep. You must be tired.
We cuddled a bit. Just hugging and staring at each others eyes.
I fell asleep after awhile. His voice leading me and making me dizzy.

I woke up. I looked up only to see Jungkook sleeping next to me. I couldn't help but stare at his face. He slept so peaceful, looking so innocent and small. He woke up slowly opening his eyes with a curl on his lips.
- Mmm Jimin don't stare at me like that. -
He replied covering his face.
-Why is that ? 
-Because you are making me want to kiss you.
He murmured.
He looked sad a little and down. I didn't know why. Deep down I wanted him to kiss me, but I couldn't say anything. I just looked away.
- Why do you disappear when the sun rises again ? 
I asked breaking the silence.
- I don't know- he started - but the most important thing is that I get to see you and hold you this way.
- Oh Jungkook. I am glad to see you everyday too. But... Do you think you can get me out of that wall ? 
- Jimin baby, I am not sure. I will try i promise.
- Please Jungkook.  I think I am going out of my mind. -
I teared up again. I wanted to wipe my tears but Jungkook was quicker.
- Jimin please don't cry. I swear I will do anything I can.
He kissed my tears away. Then I was crashed. He was crying too.
Then he disappeared. Again.