May 11,
Never did I think it would happen so fast, but it did.
He really said it. There's no going back for him, he said it and it's out there.
He told me he loved me.
Honestly I'm surprised he's already said it to me. He told me that you know when it's the one that you love, that you get that true feeling of cloud nine. He apparently feels that with me. Out of all people me.
He told me that if he's ever having a bad day, the thought of me or even the sound of my voice makes him happy. It's so hard to believe because he deserves to love someone better than me but he fell for me all the way.
The only thing is... I didn't say it back. I know I should've but I honestly don't know if I do love him, I've never been in love so I don't know how it feels or when you know you're in love. But he said not to worry if I didn't feel the same way yet, that it was okay and he just wanted me to know how he feels.
Since he told me, I've been thinking non stop if I'm in love with him. Everything he told me about being in love, that's what I feel with him. But what if it's just a mere infatuation? God, I really don't know.
I think I'm gonna sleep. Yeah, sleep. Sleep is good. Till next time journal that my therapist makes me keep.
Today was the day Zayn Malik told me he loved me.
And boy, did Zayn remember that day. His hands were sweaty, his voice was shaky, he couldn't seem to process what was happening. But once he got it out he felt better, cause then he could say it all he wanted to her and express it to her.
It was truly amazing how quickly she made him fall in love with her. Wondering if realizing she loved him was mentioned in it anywhere he continued his reading instead of the task that was really at hand and pushed it aside for later.
May 23,
That sealed the deal for me. I now know.
