March 19,
It was official, I liked Zayn Malik.
It was an obvious one wasn't it? Well after that one day we hung out during his break we've been talking non stop. Texting, calling, hanging out in person.
I really wanted to tell myself I didn't like him like that but, I couldn't help it. He's practically got me wrapped around his finger. He doesn't know that though, even if he did, he wouldn't take advantage of it.
I really don't want to have feelings so strong for him. He probably doesn't like me like that. He's an attractive guy too, he must have a girlfriend. Oh well, a girl can dream.
That wasn't the truth at all. From the first moment he met Juliet, he was mesmerized by her dark blue, denim eyes. She had him wrapped around her finger. She was the only girl Zayn had wanted in a while.
After talking to him so much, I had learned that we were actually very different. We agreed on a lot but we were interested in different things. That didn't affect my opinion on him any less, infact, it only made my feelings towards him even stronger.
I just wish I knew how he felt about me. Guys say girls were hard to understand but guys are just as hard. How the hell do you tell if a guy likes you or not? At least girls have the decency to drop small hints and flirt but guys, they're an absolute dead end.
Ugh, I just wish this whole 'liking someone' thing was easier to deal with and figure out. Someday, I will make him feel the same way. I don't know why, this is just the one thing i need to accomplish. And I will.
Today was the day I realized I had feelings for Zayn Malik.
If only Zayn had made his move a bit more soon. It might have ended up the same way though, them just breaking up. But it could've just been more time to hold her, to kiss her, to have her as all his. That moment was long gone by now. Zayn checked the time, he really should keep packing but instead, he turned another page.
March 26,
It finally happened.
