July 20,
So apparently the whole point of this journal was to track how I'm doing.
My therapist only wanted me to keep this thing so she could read it. So she could enter my personal world. She wanted to see if I was getting better, at first it was supposed to be something to help me vent without being vulnerable. But she didn't ever care about that.
So today she asked me to hand over my journal. I told her no. This thing is my personal feelings which shouldn't be shared with anybody over force. Besides, all she'd find in here is a bunch of Zayn.
God, but its not okay that she just thought that I would hand it over if she asked. She told me I should keep this so I don't have to keep my emotions bottled up so much. I never wanted a therapist.
Then she started arguing with me about how she needed to see it, she needed to know if I was getting better or worse or staying the same. She only wanted it because "I wasn't giving her enough information." I actually happened to give her plenty of information.
So this is what I told her, "If you're not smart enough to notice that I have been giving you information, you're pretty dumb. In fact you haven't seemed to notice anything. Remember back in February when I never smiled? Like ever? Well I'm smiling a lot more now. And honestly, I think, wait scratch that, know I'm getting better cause I have finally found someone that can make life look like a great thing and you didn't do anything to help. You really don't do anything do you? Yeah, I'm done with these therapist sessions cause if I've been coming to you for four years and you haven't done anything and I can be with someone for six months and they can do a better job than you, you must suck." Then I walked straight out of there. I'm never going back.
Today was the day I realized that the only help I really needed was getting away from that therapist.
Zayn had no words for this. He had no idea that Juliet had stood up to her therapist like that, she had never mentioned anything. He also hadn't known that he had had such a huge impact on her life. Well she did have the same one on his. They both were grateful.
August 15,
Everything seems to be taking a turn.
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