May 23,
That sealed the deal for me. I now know.
I now know how I feel.
I now know what that cloud nine is like.
I now know what loving a person is like.
I myself am honestly so surprised it happened so quickly, usually it happens slower, over time. Or at least that's how it goes in the movies but real life obviously isn't a scripted out movie. All of the emotions they have are fake, these ones, they're real.
Being in love really cannot be described in any way, love it just something that comes to you if you're lucky enough. Well actually, love doesn't come to you, it smashes into you. Pretty damn hard too.
But it's the nicest wrecking ball ever.
That's the best you can do to describe love. It's so complicated, it's something that isn't said, but felt and seen. I can only hope that everyone too, gets to experience the pure warmth, joy and happiness of love when it randomly smashes into you out of nowhere.
I can't seem to get my mind off of him now. Every time i think of him this big, goofy and probably idiot type looking smile breaks across my face. Just the simple thought of that guy can get me feeling so unconditionally happy, almost like there's nothing wrong with the world, wrong with life, wrong with me. But i know that's not true. The world has countless problems, my life has its troubles, and i certainly am far from not being troubled. But Zayn is just my distraction from that.
At first, I was a bit terrified of falling in love with him. I already knew our relationship could only go two ways from there. I knew that it would either last forever, or end. I was afraid of falling in love and seeing it all end. I don't want that cause I love him. It's a privilege being in love with Zayn.
Today was the day I knew I was in love with Zayn Malik.
That day, he was still marking that date on the calendar. May 23 'the day Juliet said she loved me' it would say. Zayn's face was now covered in a smile as he relived the memory in his head. That day, without a doubt, was one of the best days of his life.
To Zayn, it honestly didn't matter that she had problems. Learning to see her problems and learning to love them too was the first step to falling in love, even though she never mentioned her problems until much later.
Knowing that there was absolutely no way he was going to pack anymore for the night, Zayn stood up off the ground he had been sitting on and sat on his couch to continue reading the journal.
June 1,
This boy.
