May 1,
I don't think I've ever so been happy in my entire life.
Today I tried to break it off with Zayn, try to convince him he's just wasting his time with me, I'm not worth it.
That's not what made me happy though, no.
What made me happy was what he said. This is what he told me and I quote, "Juliet, you couldn't get rid of me no matter how hard you tried. To me, it doesn't matter how damaged to you say you are, it doesn't matter that we don't have absolutely everything in common. I don't need someone to talk about novels with, cause I like having our pointless conversations that last till one in the morning. If i didn't want to date someone like you, I wouldn't have asked you out in the first place. You're the only one i want right now."
How could I break up with him when he's saying that to me?
So of course I didn't break it off, he wouldn't let me (not that I'm arguing.) I just really hope it doesn't all backfire, I don't mess it up. I don't know what I'd do if i were to be the one that broke his heart.
Die probably. Cry a lot for sure.
But yeah, I guess I have some more time to spend with him. That's what also made me so happy. Knowing that I have someone who doesn't want to loose me, who does care for me. Its just such a nice feeling.
Today was the day Zayn Malik made me happier than I've ever been in my entire life.
Zayn never thought that that day had affected her in that way, he was happy it did though.
Zayn partially wanted to stop reading, it brought back so many memories and it just reminded him of how much it hurt when it ended, but he couldn't. He needed to see what she thought of the relationship, how it seemed to work in her mind, what was going on with her that she wouldn't tell him. So his eyes landed on the beginning of the next entry that began like
May 11,
Never did I think it would happen so fast, but it did.
