Love, Lies and Alibis (Henares Series #1)

Twelve

Handkerchief

What's frightening with amnesia is the state of uncertainty. Uncertain to my true self, to my life goals and to the people that used to cherish. It was scary to be someone who's doubtful to everything and everyone.

Natatakot ako na baka dahil sa kamangmangan ay itinutulak ko na pala palayo ang mga taong mahalaga sa akin. Habang kinakabig palapit ang hindi ko dapat pagkatiwalaan.

You're a mystery
I have traveled the world
And there's no other girl like you, no one
What's your history?

"You can't forget me, baby... I won't let you..." he murmured in my ear. His hot breath was reek with bourbon and mint.

Mahigpit niya akong yakap. I buried my face on his chest. Inhaling his scent. Welcoming his warmth that I longed for days.

Some people think that innocence is bliss. That forgetting your past is a blessing. But I don't uphold to such belief.

In my case, not remembering my past is a curse. We can't know who we are without our past. And we can't go on with our lives if we don't know who we are.

Our past-no matter how thorny it was-molded whoever we are today. We don't need to forget. We just have to accept it. To live with it.

Do you have the tendency to lead some people on?
'Coz I heard that you do
I could fall or I could fly
Here on your aeroplane

Ngunit kapag ganitong marupok ako. Medyo lasing at giniginaw sa panggabing hangin, tinutunaw ng mainit niyang yakap ang mga alalahanin ko.

All of my fears were quickly washed away by just the warmth from his embrace. And to think that depending on him is even more frightening. But I don't care anymore.

I could live, I could die
Hanging on the words you say
I've been known to give my all
And lie awake, everyday
Don't know how much I can take

We were both swaying along Pavlo's melodic voice. Tila ba nahipnotismo sa isa't isa. Sumabay kami sa daloy ng musika.

I don't want to think. I don't want to say a thing. Ayaw ko munang lumipas ito. I will let my inhibited emotions set free tonight.

So don't call me baby
Unless you mean it
And don't tell me you need me
If you don't believe it

Kahit ngayon gabi lang, magpapakahibang muna ako...

Suminghap siya sa aking leeg at halos manigas na ako. Oh wait. Naninigas na nga talaga ako!

"I. Will. Make. You. Remember." He groaned against my skin. Stressing each word with determination.

My nerves tingled as his hot breath fluttered against the sensitive part of my neck. Suddenly, the warmth permeated from his body turned to scorching heat.

Pinirmi ko ang kamay sa kanyang dibdib. Habang ang bisig niya sa aking baywang ay lalong humihigpit.

So let me know the truth
Before I dive right in to you

"Sia..."

Nag-angat ako ng tingin. His eyes were restless while holding my gaze. I suddenly felt like drowning in those two brown orbs. I couldn't breathe. Parang hinihigop ng titig niya ang hangin sa aking katawan.

I unconsciously bit my lip. His smoldering gaze lowered. A familiar blazing sensation starting to spread in my entire being.

This felt really familiar. I felt this with him once. An obscene scenario of us kissing at the horses stable flashed in my mind.