Eli

Twenty

 A few days had passed since I last talked with Chance and he was always on my mind. During the day I found myself day dreaming and thinking about him and at night I laid in bed and thought about him before I went to bed. He even popped up in my dreams a few times. I was beating myself up over what went down and I knew the only way to fix what I did was to talk to him face to face.

It was Friday and I didn't have to work tonight but I was heading into the club anyway. I invited out Lauren and Bri to have a girls night and everyone else was coming along with us. Not only was I going to try to have fun tonight but I was also going to tell Chance how I felt. The whole day I had Tiffany, Lauren and Bri in my ear giving me advice and giving me suggestions on what to say.

To prepare for tonight I even got cute, got my hair done, new nail color, all yellow and the girls threatened me if I threw on anything that was supposed to be for a boy so I threw on a t-shirt dress but put a green bomber jacket over it and put on some sneakers. I wasn't down to wear any makeup so as usual I just settled on some lip gloss and put on some shades.

Even after the advice and me getting dressed up I was still nervous to face him. I couldn't help wondering if he would even want to talk to me. If the roles were reversed and I stood him up my ass would never want to talk to him again let alone look at him. I could only hope he would just hear what I had to say. Even after I poured my heart out there was a possibility that he still wouldn't talk to me and that shit scared me.

At the club I sat around for about twenty minutes in my seat anxiously looking around. I knew Chance was here but so far I hadn't laid eyes on him so I knew he had to be in his office. I couldn't wait around anymore and decided to go and find him. I stood up and pulled down my dress and Tiffany shot me a thumbs up and I nodded as I made my way to Chance's office wishing that Lauren and Bri were here as well. Shit could go either way but I was just hoping that luck was on my side tonight.

I was just going to play it cool and be honest with him, completely honest. I was done playing this cat and mouse game. If he still wanted me, I was his. Once I reached his office I stood outside for a bit, the door was a bit open but I wasn't going to let anything stop me. I knocked once and pushed the door open peaking in hoping he wasn't busy. What I saw made my heart drop to my stomach, him and Stephanie kissing.

Fucking kissing! It all happened so fast, in seconds. They pulled away when they heard the knock but by then it was too late and I was already turning around to walk away. My eyes were burning and I couldn't explain what I was feeling right now. I couldn't believe this shit. Once I got back to the section I avoided eye contact with everybody and picked up the unopened bottled of Patron. I didn't even fuck with anything but Hennessy but fuck it.

I drank straight from the bottle and once I put it down I saw Lauren and Bri making there way into our section dancing. I was glad they were here, I didn't need to anyone to tell me what I needed to hear, I needed someone to take my mind off what I just saw. I knew that person would be Lauren.

They said hi to everyone in our section and Lauren bypassed Geo who was trying to flirt, as usual and sat over by me. Tiffany finally left Matt's side and joined me and the girls.

"So," Bri nudged me, "Did you talk to him yet?"
"Yeah," I mumbled taking another sip of Patron as they all watched.

"And I'm guessing your not throwing back all this alcohol just because," Lauren sighed, "What happened?"
They all looked at me waiting for me to tell them what happened but thinking about it and saying it made me sick to my stomach. The shit was still replaying in my head.

"Shit didn't go as planned," I tried to keep it short but I knew that wouldn't cut it with them.

"What do you mean by that," Tiffany asked, "You were barely gone for two minutes."