Eli

Thirty One

It's been a long two days and I had been cooped up in a hotel keeping my distance from everyone and trying to get my mind right. Everyone had been blowing me up but I texted Tiff and told her I was good, that didn't stop Chance from blowing me up though. I did listen to the four voicemails he left me first asking me where I was and the more I ignored him the more pissed off he seemed.

I didn't see how talking could get us anywhere and to be honest I was hiding because I couldn't face him. Me and Chance could be related and I didn't give a fuck if he was only related to Money by marriage, it was still a fucked up. That wasn't even the main thing that had me fucked up.

I was tripping over what Money told me about my mom. The news that my mom was dead hit me harder than I could have imagined. Not only that she was dead but she was murdered. All this time I walked around hating her but now I just wished I could meet her, talk to her, anything. I would never get the chance to do any of that and if I only had tried to find her two years ago I could have.

Last night I got a call from Money and didn't answer but he left me a voicemail trying to convince me to meet him to take a DNA test. I didn't want to see him but I wanted to find out if he was my father so I finally left my hotel room and here I was. After checking in, filling out some paper work and got sent to the back to get this over with.

After getting my mouth swabbed I walked out the front, there was nothing else for me to do but to wait a week for the call with the results. I spotted Money in waiting area and it looked like he was waiting for me. He stood up and walked over to me and I took my time looking him over trying to see any similarities in our appearance.

It all made sense, why over the years he was always so quick to help me out and go above and beyond for me. He knew all these years and not only kept it a secret from me but Vinny. He could have at least told Vin what the deal was.

"Eli...I wasn't sure if you got my message since you never responded."

I didn't bother responding to him, it was obvious I has got his message otherwise I wouldn't be here right now, would I?

"So now you can't speak to me?"

I cocked my head to the side at his question and sighed. Can he blame me for not having anything to say to him. I found out two days ago that he may be my father but also that my mom is dead and my boyfriend could be my cousin. All the while he knew all this time.

"How come you never told me?"

"I didn't tell you because I wasn't sure."

"So what made you want to tell me now?"

"Chance told me you were looking for your mother and also I saw how close you two were. I didn't even know you two were together and I didn't want to make it anymore awkward between the two of you."

"To late for that and how come you didn't tell Vin. Why wasn't our mom at his funeral? Did she know that he died or did she not care?"

Money sighed and glanced around, "I got in contact with her after it happened, she was there...at the funeral."

I felt like someone knocked the wind out of me and took a step away from me, "Come again?"

"She was there, in the crowd. I don't know if you remember her but she approached you."

"Do you know how high and out of it I was that day?"

I tried remembering back to the funeral and I remembered attending but it was like an out of body experience. I didn't shed a tear that day, I just sat back stone faced waiting for the day to be over. There was so many people at the funeral that day that Beyonce could have walked up to me that day and I wouldn't have realized because I was so out of it.