reset || han jisung

chapter 8

we arrived at the beach and i smiled bitterly while reminiscing our good memories together. i turned at jisung and he was staring at me.

"what?" i asked "n-nothing.. you just look.... beautiful." he said while biting his lower lip. i chuckled a bit and dragged him by his hand to the ocean.

the sun was starting to set and we looked at it. it looked the same way it did 2 1/2 years ago and i was here with the same person a few years later. ironic isn't it? i admired the beautiful colors of the sun setting. pink, purple, yellow, white all my favorite colors filled the sky as i forgot where i was and who i was with.

i felt my tears fill my eyes as i thought back to our first day and the day he confessed. i miss it. i miss him. i miss us.

"jisung-ah, close your mouth" i chuckled and wiped away the tears that escaped my eyes. "it looks so beautiful i can't help but stare at it like this!" he said as he averted his gaze to me. then he closed his mouth and i could tell his eyes were shaking.

"what's wrong?" i asked him concerned. "y-you just look so beautiful ne-near the sunset. you're glowing" he said as his cheeks turned a light shade of pink. i chuckled and hugged him, at first he was stiff then lightened up. "just stay like this for a moment, han jisung." i said as i hugged him tighter.

in the back of my head while i was hugging jisung all the moments we shared together came rushing to my head. it made me sad and upset knowing i might not get his love for me back. he was the most precious person to me but tis is my second time losing him. i let a few tears fall from my eyes as i let go of jisung and smiled.

"let's get going..." i said as i slowly tried walking away until i felt a hand on my wrist. "what are you doing jisung?" i looked at him as tears filled his eyes. he came closer to my ear and said, "maybe this will help me remember" he said as a few tears left his eyes again.

he grabbed my cheeks with his hands and started to lean in closer. the closer he leaned in the more we'd close our eyes. my eyes were fully shut and i felt a pair of chapped but soft comfortable lips against mine. i replied to the kiss and smiled in the middle of it. it felt like our first kiss again for me.

"eunah, i feel light headed.." he said as he passed out on the ground. i called his doctor and the doctor told me to lie him down on his side. he also said this may happen when he got a memory or a flashback.

after 6 minutes jisung woke up, he looked confused but once he saw me tears filled his eyes again as he hugged me tightly.

"eunah, eunah, i remember. i remember you, us, our memories, how i hurt you. i'm so sorry eunah. i'm sorry i couldn't remember. i'm sorry i couldn't be a good boyfriend. i'm sorry i couldn't love you the way you deserve to be loved. i'm so so so sorry for the hell i made you go through while we weren't together. fuck eunah, i love you and my love for you never changed. so will you please be my girlfriend... again?" he said as tears fell down both of our eyes.

"yes, yes jisung yes!" truthfully, it felt ad if i was getting married. but i wasn't. my boyfriend asked me to be his again after regaining his memory and it was the best feeling in the world.

"i love you eunah"

"i love you too jisung" we interlocked our hands and walked along the beach together as a happy couple. the way we did before.