reset || han jisung

chapter 6

after school the boys and i made our way to jisungs hospital ward. everyone at school was talking about jisung and the accident. i felt guilty and upset, it was my fault. it was all me. if i never acted that way with chan he would've never walked out and everything would have been okay.

i heard a honking and i looked at the car. maybe if i let this car hit me i could forget jisung and everything will be okay. maybe if i get hit by this car jisung will remember me. maybe if i get hit with this car i can feel the pain jisung felt. questions and ideas were wondering around in my head as i felt a grip around my waist pulling me in snapping me out of my thoughts.

"yah!! eunah!! what are you doing?! you almost got hit! are you crazy?!" chan scolded me as he made sure i was okay. tears filled my eyes as chan scolded me. "hyung, she was probably thinking about jisung again. don't raise your voice at her." minho said as he talked to chan to calm him down a bit. "i-i'm sorry eunah. just please pay attention." he said taking my bag off of my back and holding it for me.

we arrived at the hospital and i was truly scared to go into his ward. i didn't want to get him angry or upset.

"hyungs! dongsaengs! eunah?" he said. "h-hi jisung!" i said trying to be bubbly and excited. "yah, if you are nervous or anything don't be. come here. i was rude yesterday, i apologize." he patted the bed telling me to sit down. "so... tell me about you, about us." he said as he looked at me with his beautiful brown eyes.

i laid down in the bed next to him with a trembling heart. i haven't been this nervous since our first date and i smiled at myself recalling our first date.

"we were friends since elementary school. we did everything together, literally. then we entered middle school and you introduced me to the boys and we all became really really close friends. we all always hung out and stuff. then, in the summer of our first year of high school you confessed to me. you asked me to be your girlfriend... and i said yes! we were happy for a whole year and 9 months. almost 2 years. but one day you just started... you started acting strange and i caught you kissing some girl and after i caught you... you broke up with me. after the break up you left all of us and you hung out with people who smoked and drunk and you eventually did the same thing.. we started talking again recently because we saved you from a fight and you begged me in the middle of the street for my forgiveness... so i forgave you." i explained with tears filling my eyes as i avoided eye contact.

"that sounds terrible... but i'm really sorry. i truly don't remember you, or us. it kinda makes me sad how i made someone so sad.. the boys told me how sad you were when we broke up to try and get my memory of you back but i can't. i'm so sorry eunah" he said as his eyes were glossy. he seemed so sincere.

"t-tomorrow since you get discharged... we're going on a dat-date. i'll pay.. after school i'm coming." i said as i wiped away the tears that left his eyes and got my stuff and left.