reset || han jisung

chapter 4

jisung and i finished the dinner in a rather comfortable silence. none of us dared to speak. i smiled at my homecooked meal and brought it over to my group of friends that seemed extremely hungry.

"woaah... eunah this is amazing! i love it!!" chan said as he took the first bit looking up at me with his eyes wide. "that's not the only thing eunah related that you love" changbin said under his breath causing chan to smack him while the other boys laughed leaving me confused.

i turned to jisung and he was quiet... again. it made me wonder why he was so quiet. we made eye contact but i quickly looked away as i realized the glare he was giving me was his angry one.

a couple of minutes later the boys and i were laughing and being loud like always. we theew around some vegetables and took photos with one another and of one another. more precious photos to add to our photo album.

chan looked at me and shoved a big spoon full of food in my mouth. at first, i was taken aback but then i realized he was trying to feed me so i smiled and fed him back. the boys looked at us and took photos. as chan came to clean my mouth jisung slammed his fists onto the wooden table and left my house slamming the door behind him.

i got up and ran after him. he was acting strange and i really wanted to know why. as i got closer to him i noticed he was smoking a cigarette and i felt my blood heat up as i balled my hands into fists. i grabbed one of the little rocks on the floor and threw it at his back causing him to snap his neck to look at me.

"han jisung!! why are you smoking a cigarette? do you not know how bad those are for you? they affect your heart and lungs!" i said angry as i yelled at him. he smirked and chuckled sarcastically. "smoking is bad for my health? smoking is the only thing that numbs away my pain. all i do is breathe in your fresh sent and my heart only beats for you. but how can i make it stop beating for you? because to me it seems your beats for someone else and right now i want to numb away the pain." he said as he got closer to my petite body. i was rather shocked.

"what do you mean jisung?" i said as i smacked the cigarette out of his rather large hands. "i know you like chan and i know he likes you back. the way he looks at you has it written all over his face" jisung said as i saw his eyes get glossy. he was about to cry - because of me.

"jisung... i don't like chan. shit, i'm still in love with you. my love for you has never left and never will. don't say stupid stuff like this again and please don't ever smoke again" i said wiping away the tears that left his eyes. "i love you, eunah" he said right before he ran across the street to throw away his cigarettes and lighter.

i smiled brightly at him as he mirrored my smile coming back. he wasn't paying attention and neither was i. it felt as if the world stopped. until, we heard honking and in the blink of an eye, jisung was laying on the concrete surrounded by his blood. i ran to him and yelled and yelled for help until someone heard me and called 911. i cried all the way to the hospital. i couldn't lose jisung, not again.