Jens Pov
I'm laying on the couch in the laziest way ever. Emme's laying at the other end watching whatever on tv. We were waiting for Sofia and Leah. They were supposed to be here 30 minutes ago. I got annoyed and just decided to relax.
Then the door bell rung. I groaned and emme jumps off the couch and starts bugging me. "Mommy they're here!! Open it!" I roll my eyes and get up and walk towards the door. I look dreadful.
"Sleeping beauty at its finest" leah says after I open the door "shut the fuck up why were you late?" I ask while putting my messy hair in a messy bun. "Okay watch your mouth. You're having my kid sleep over with you talking like that?" "I wasn't looking forward to your sarcasm today, Okay? I'll drop her off at 4 tomorrow. Have fun doing whatever- wait..what're you gonna do while she's here?"
Leah smirks and crosses her arms "Oh wouldn't you like to know" "well yeah I just fucking asked you" "Jennifer. Language!" I sighed. "It's none of your business" she said
"you wish I was your business" "wasnt I the one who stopped what we had?" "Oh you think you're funny now?" I say and cross my arms too. "Nope. Just telling the truth." "so now you wanna be honest?" "Yup"
She shrugs her shoulders.
"Well honestly. I don't know why you're taking so long to ask for me back." "Like you'd accept that.." "I would. I miss having you around a lot but it is what it is. Some people are just so-" "dumb I get it you think I'm dumb" Leah said
"no I don't just think. I know you are dumb. You're the reason why our kids haven't been spending time with each other. You're the reason you, yourself, checks me out every day feeling guilty about what the hell you did. You knew what you had and you lost it and I find it funny how you probably think I'm strong about this with my attitude and all that but I'm really not. That's just me. I guess sleep isn't important. Thinking about you is more important. Right?"
"Okay it's not my fault your daughter is so traumatized. I'm trying to help her from another confusing relationship her mother would've had that Emme wouldn't understand"
I shake my head a put my hand at the door. "Bye Leah" I said and closed the door on her. She's so fucking annoying, I swear. I love her. But I hate her too.
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Leah's pov
Jennifer's attitude is going beyond what I expected and that's partly my fault. But I feel bad. We really shouldn't be like this. It's been a damn month and we still aren't friends.
So later that night.. laying in my bed alone and sad. I decided to stop acting like a child and apologize to jen through text. I mean I like and don't like the little tension going on but things could get worst and what's going on right now is bad enough so I should be careful.
"Ok. I'm sorry about earlier. I just haven't been handling things too well lately"
"Yeah. You and me both."
"I really expected us to just become friends but now we act like enemies. I don't like that"
"Whose fault is that? Mine? It most definitely is not."
"Mine yes I know but jen you have to understand that I'm trying to help."
"Maybe you should've thought ahead to this point and realize that our daughters miss each other like crazy. They're best friends leah!"
"I know."
"So what're you even apologizing for because there's a lot you gotta be sorry for."
She's getting brave.
It took me 10 minutes to finally decide to respond.
"I'm sorry. Sorry for acting the way I am. I'm sorry I broke us up. I still like you. Very much. That night I went out for my birthday. If only you knew how bad it was. I drank so much. I cried a lot but nobody knew why. It's sad. I'm not sorry for trying to help you out with Emme because I know you'd be stressed out if Emme just kept questioning us."
"Leah I don't care anymore. Emme could ask a billion questions and id still do whatever it takes to keep you and her. I wanted me and you to become official. I wanted to tell Emme eventually. Leah I'm in love with you and you don't seem to realize how in love with you I am. I guess I don't show it enough but you used to make my heart skip a beat everytime I saw you. Or you'd text or call or FaceTime me which was the best because I'd get to be able to see that face of yours that always made my day better. I don't think you realize how broken I was once we were back in California. Nothing hit me till the moment I got home. I cried. I cried for days, weeks. The only times I wouldn't cry was when I had too many things going on that distracted me. Shit. I even cried when I was laying by Emme waiting for her to sleep. I'd have to lie and tell her I'm on my period because she knows I get emotional. I've taught her what happens. She's too young but she got the basic shit like my moods. Because I'm a moody person but you know who always made me have a happy mood? You. But not anymore. I'm obviously not over you and I never will because we went through so much in just a few months. I told you something that only my family knows about. Not even my closest friends. Maybe I told you too early. I guess it's my fault then that we broke up. If you never knew what happened, you never would've broken us up."
Reading this made me tear up a bit. It's hitting me even harder that I really messed up. I didn't expect this to take a turn. I just wanted to apologize. I cant even tell anymore what's happening with us. I didn't even know she loved me that much. I really don't know why she loved me that much. She trusted me and I let her down. We could've became official but I messed up and now she's blaming herself.
"No. Don't blame yourself. It's not your fault. You trusted me yes. It's my fault. I don't even know what to do. I wanna make it up to you but by the looks of it you seem to really hate me"
"I don't hate you leah I just have a really bitchy attitude which you used to love about me"
"But I do still love that about you. It may be annoying but I like how annoying you could be sometimes lol. I miss everything about you and it's not easy on me trying to help someone I'm obsessed with. I just wanted what's best for you and emme because I care so much about you both. Especially Emme. She's your rock and she keeps you strong. I know she does. You're so different without her. Those dates we went on? You'd always bring up Emme at least once. You acted different but hid it just to make yourself and I happy. I've been around you long enough to know how you act. The moment you got that tattoo, I just knew how much you love her. I know what you two have been through. I was only trying to help. I didn't mean to cause all this mess and I wanted to just stay as friends at least. But I know I wouldn't be able to handle being just friends with you. I'm too attracted to you. You're so amazing. Your gorgeous, hot, your personality, your laugh, your smile, the little things you do like scrunch up your nose, try hard not to smile, look away when you're shy or nervous, bite your nail, but then on some other days you'd be so confident and act all tough and hot and in charge. Teased me in public. Get jealous when someone looks at me for even a second. Then the times you'd make me feel like nothing else existed but us. Making me feel like I was on top of the world. Making me feel like the luckiest dumbest bitch on the planet. I miss all that and I hate myself that I just let that all go when I wasnt even ready to let you go. I still haven't let you go and it's not easy on me either. But guess what. You fell in love with one of the dumbest person you'd ever meet and I'm scared you won't ever forgive me even though you love me. I'm sorry for everything"
