Written Poetry

Yesterday

Yesterday, I lied.
I said I was fine.

I plastered my practiced smile
Showing my teeth to shine
While trying to contain the demons inside

No one has ever noticed
The truth is behind these eyes

Yesterday, I lied.
I said I was fine.

I can still contain the sadness just right
Painted happiness from tarnished hands
Threw some colors in this canvass called life

I wonder, why do I continue to fight
Why be the best actor in this land

Yesterday, I lied.
I said I was fine.

No tear dared to escape with an audience
The sobs are a treasure inside my walls
Locked away and threw the key

The four corners can no longer hold
It's empty and full

Yesterday, I lied.
Of course, they believed I was fine

No one dared to look and study
If they did, they would know
Would have said, "I know you're not fine"

Of course, they thought I was fine.

In their eyes,

I was never the person who had sleepless nights, fighting with her own mind

I was never the person who would give up, break down, and cry

I was never the person who had nightmares everytime I close my eyes

But today is different.
I did not lie.

I finally showed them I was not fine.