Written Poetry

Yesterday

Yesterday, I lied.
I said I was fine.

I showed everyone my usual smile
I managed to hide the demons inside
I know, it was courageous to fight

I did not show the tears that escaped my eyes
I did not show them how difficult it was to live
I did not tell them how tired it was for me

Yesterday, I lied.
I said I was fine.

I can still contain the sadness just right
I can still show them genuine lies
I can still fool them with my smiles

But it was already building up inside
Someday, it will all burst out like a bomb
Hurting the people who are around

Yesterday, I lied.
I said I was fine.

I showed them smiles that felt genuine
I did not allow a single tear escape my eyes
I let out laughs which made me look happy
I did not let them hear the sobs I made

Of course, they believed I was fine

No one knew what I felt inside
No one looked at me in the eyes
And said "I know those were lies"

Of course, they thought I was fine

I always managed to look optimisitic about life
I was always their advicer, comforter, and confidant
Preparing to tell them assuring lines

In their eyes,

I was never the person who had sleepless nights, fighting with her own mind

I was never the person who would give up, break down, and cry

I was never the person who had nightmares everytime I close my eyes

I was never the person who would easily end this life

But today is different.
I did not lie.

I showed them I was not fine
By commiting suicide