The crushing silence as the world falls around me.
I grip tightly on to my phone,
Reading the lengthy text again,
And again.
This can't be happening.
After everything,
Is my life even real?
Everything you told me,
Was that a lie too?
Opening up wasn't an option,
Not for you.
Yet that's all I did.
I told you everything,
Even things I shouldn't have.
We laughed,
Shared jokes,
Hated,
Became sad.
Was that all a big lie?
I was played,
Even if you say otherwise.
My happiness?
Well the very thing you wanted,
You destroyed.
Can I hold on?
I don't think I'm strong enough.
The hunger of not eating,
It would feel better than this.
This empty despair,
The imperfect feeling,
And doubting what is my own reality.
You altered it.
I thought you would be there.
You never were.
Now my entire life feels like a shame.
So I'll continue to just sit here,
Inside the mind crushing silence.
