Twins Reunited (Book 3) (Mortal Instruments)

All the Host of Hell

I stay kneeling on the ground as everyone leaves checking over the damage that has been left. The Lightwoods left me knowing I needed to be left alone and my family left as well. They gave me worried looks, but they knew to leave me to myself as well. Eventually I move to the steps where I sit for hours just staring at the sky feeling lost. I've lost Shadowhunters I knew, but Max's death is unraveling me in ways I didn't know was possible. I'm broken from my thoughts at the sound of almost inaudible footsteps causing me to look up. Simon gives a sheepish look when I look at him before rubbing the back of his neck.

"They all told me to leave you alone, but I know that you shouldn't be left alone. I'm going to sit with you until the sun goes down and I'll bring you to Raphael."

"Thank you, Si. I just keep wishing I'm in a nightmare and that I'm going to wake up soon. If I woke up all the bad would be gone and he would still be here smiling. I can't believe Max the little boy who made me protective of him the instant I laid eyes on him is gone."

"I know, but there's nothing anyone can do about this. You and Isabelle are both so unraveled which terrifies me. In all the time I've known you it's almost as if nothing could hurt you."

"I learned early on how to hide behind and emotionless façade. I was finally letting the wall fall down and now it hurts so much. I'm just going to lay here Si you don't have to stay."

I lie against the cold marble letting it soothe the feverish feeling of my skin. If only the Council had listened to me then there would never have been any death last night. We could have prepared for them and they never would have made it past the wards. A fire-message appears in front of me causing Simon to look my way.

"Alec sent a message to Magnus asking how to help you. I'm guessing Magnus is worried about you and is checking on you."

J,

Alec has told me what has happened last night and I'm sorry I can't be there. I'm working on the spell to wake your mother so she will probably be there soon. He also said your brother attacked you and that he's worried about you. He says you're coming apart at the seams and I want to know if you want to come back home? I would be waiting on the other side of the Portal for you if you decide to come home. Send me a fire-message with your decision.

Magnus

"Simon do you have any paper on you by chance?"

"I don't but I can get you some if you really need it. Are you planning to send a message to Magnus?"

"Will you please get me some. I need to send a reply to Magnus as soon as possible." I say with a soft voice.

He nods before getting up and going who knows where to get paper for me. I give a soft sigh as I go back to looking at the sky from a reclined position. Simon is gone for a long time which allows me to get lost in my thoughts which is dangerous right now. How could I have let myself get played so easily? It's because he's my brother and I hoped he could love me even though we've been separated for years. I just yearn for someone of my blood to love me and it's far too dangerous for me. I'll only end up getting hurt when it comes to trying to get their love. If only I hadn't trusted him so easily then Max would still be here for me to hold. I'm broken from my thoughts when Simon appears with a pen and paper in his hands.

"Thank you, Si. I appreciate you doing this for me and you can go see Clary now. The sun will be down in a little while and I know where to go." I say and he nods before leaving me alone.

Mags,

I know if you could be here for Alec and me you would be. I blindly trusted my brother and believed that the loved me as much as I love him. Only he hates me and told me such while he strangled me. He said he couldn't love me because I look like a half-breed to him and because my father praised me while he grew up. I have to stay in Alicante for Izzy and Alec. I do appreciate the offer, but I am needed here. Thank you for warning me about my mother by the way. See you soon.

Jade

I see the sun begin dipping below the horizon and burn the fire-message sending it to Magnus. I begin slowly walking to Raph because I know Izzy has probably locked herself in her room to be alone. I'll eventually find a way into her room to check on her, but for now I shall leave her in peace. She'd do the same for me in the situation and I will respect her choice. I make it to Raph's and open the door as the sun finally sinks down leaving darkness. I take off my boots and leave my weapons as footsteps enter my ears. I turn around with a weak smile and he pulls me into his embrace. Tears prick my eyes, but I force them away because I'm tired of crying. Max wouldn't want me to be a crying mess over him and I hate crying in front of anyone.

"Magnus sent me a message about what happened. Let's go upstairs and if you want I won't let anyone in to see you until you're ready."

I give a watery smile at that as he leads me upstairs before going back downstairs. I know he's drinking blood so I don't worry too much about where he is. Not long after he comes back in and holds me knowing without me saying anything that I'm coming apart at the seams.

"My brother hates me and played me for a fool the whole time since he's been back. I just don't understand how I could have been so blind." I say holding onto my neck remembering his hand wrapped around my throat.

"You love him Jay and you never stopped even when you were told he died. A part of you is missing because Clary left you which has left you feeling unloved by your family. That is why you blindly believed he loved you and it is not your fault. I thought he did as well and Magnus swears he thought he loved you. Have you slept at all today?"

"I can't fall asleep and I don't know why."

He shifts me so that I am laying on his chest before he begins stroking my hair. My tail unwraps itself from my waist as I slowly begin drifting off into a deep slumber.

*A/N: Merry Christmas!*