Paris

Pretty Much

Logan's POV:

After three weeks of being in the hospital today Rory was finally being released. It has been a very long recovery; however it has also been very eye opening. My sister giving birth to my newest god child Molly, seeing Mason holding his little sister for the first time, and finding out something beyond heart breaking. 

Rory finally told me that she found out after we broke up that she was pregnant. Instead of telling me she decided to have an abortion. When she told me I have to admit, I was very angry, hurt & in disbelief. Rory's reasoning behind why she chose made sense however it didn't numb the pain i instantly felt. The "what-ifs" keep creeping into my mind. Like what-if Rory didn't make that choice & kept the baby. Would she have raised the baby on her own & I'd never know? What-if she told me, and we got back together? All these scenarios kept going through my mind, and it was driving me insane. I was also alerted that our merger was approved so Finn & I were all set up with Ryan's backing. 

Rory was cleared to travel home so Rory was very adamant to fly back to New York. We were able to find a flight back to the United States in 3 days so we decided to stay at a hotel until our flight. We have barely spoken about the secret, and the tension between is thick but also not. As much as i am hurt by when Rory did; I also had no place to fully judge her due to where we were in our lives. We weren't even together, and at that point i was more focused on proving my father wrong then I ever could be a father to my own child. 

We arrived at the hotel, & Rory was the most relaxed she has been in weeks. We have barely spoken about the abortion, and honestly i have been avoiding bringing it up. We find ourselves sitting on the couches in the hotel when Rory drops her phone on the table & let's out a loud sigh. "You need to actually talk to me Logan or i am going to lose it." Rory says in a sharp tone. "I am not in the head space to discuss this right now." I say. Rory shakes her head at me, and places her head in her hands. "I am so sorry. I should have told you in the very fucking beginning. My mother told me it was what was best considering where we were at the time." Rory says with tears coming down her beautiful face. "At the time we weren't in the best place. However, I am deeply hurt by you not saying a damn thing to me. I wish you would have included me in your decision." I say to her. Before Rory could respond; I walk towards her, and pull her into a hug.

For the first time in weeks I could feel Rory relax in my prescience. "I am so sorry Logan. So beyond sorry." Rory says crying on my shoulder. I pull away slightly from her & take her face in my hands. "I never want to hear you say you're sorry again. I am never allowing you to walk away from me so let's learn to move on from this." I say to her before kissing her softly. "I love you." She says kissing me again. I instantly break out in a smile when she says that. "I love you too Ace." I say to her. Even with a broken leg; Rory still crawls onto my lap & snuggles into me. Holding her in my arms is one of my favorite things to do & I always remembered this when we were apart.

Eventually we both fell asleep, somehow we both ended up laying down.  I was woken up by someones phone ringing, and I try to move slowly so I don't wake up Rory. I find my phone, and noticed that it was her mom calling me. I clear my throat & answer the phone to find out why Lorealai was calling me. "Hello?" I answer. "Sorry to bother you Logan, but i was wanting to see how Rory was doing." Lorelai said. "She seems to be doing okay. Just waiting for our flight back to the states." I say while smiling at Rory. "That is good Logan, but i wasn't exactly hinting at that. How is Rory doing after telling you about the abortion." She says to me. My head is telling me to not disclose my actual feelings. "We are working through this. I am sure once Rory is ready to fully tell you then she will." I say.

"Just do one thing for me. Do not blame Rory for the abortion, because it was me who told her to do it. I was worried she'd give up everything we worked so hard for, and follow to California. I wanted the life we envisioned for so long." Lorelai confesses to me. I sit in pure silence, and my anger begins to rise. Rory was slowly waking up, and she was staring at me with confusion written blatantly on her face.  Instead of responding to Lorelai I end the call. "What happened?" Rory asked me. I let out a sigh, and look at her. "She told me that she convinced you to abort our baby." I say to her while carefully moving off the couch.

Rory closes her eyes, and lets out a shaky breath. Before i say something i will most likely regret, and decide to leave for a walk. "Where are you going Logan?" Rory asks me. "I just need to figure somethings out. I'll be back." I respond while walking out of the hotel.