The Fault In Our Stars [camren edition]

Week One: I'm a grenade.

FOR EACH WEEK THERE WILL BE ABOUT 3 CHAPTERS WRITTEN ABOUT THEM JUST TO LET YOU KNOW :)

-

Camilas POV

I Finally did it. I broke up with lauren. I know she was the love of my life. She gave a me a forever within a matter of days. And i really was thankful for that. I wish i could explain why i had to break up with her. But i didnt have the time, and i wasnt strong enough. It was for our own good. I just didnt want to hurt her while im dying...

Laurens POV

ice creams tubs, cigarettes, bottles of whiskey scattered the floor of this dump i call a room. I got wasted. I couldnt get my shit together at all. Last night i called beau to come and cheer me up, but nothing worked. I ended up sobbing in his chest and mumbling words about camz. I miss her I want her back so badly. I was sitting up on my bed, i hugged my legs against my chest, slightly tearing up after last night. I didnt sleep at all last night. "beau?", i asked in a soft voice. Beau was in the corner of the room, sitting on a chair. He looked exhausted from last night, it took almost forever to calm me down. "mmhm?", he responded in a sleepy tone. "d-do you think camz s-still love m-me?" i looked at him in pleading eyes. He hesitated to answer, "oh um ofcourse she does...lauren"

I looked down for a while. Thinking about the times me and camz were having the time of our lives together. She showed me the brighter sides of life and I showed her the same. I smiled lightly at the thoughts. Next thing i know i lit up a fag and started inhaling the smoke thus exhaling. "I need to talk to her", i said nonchalantly. Beau nodded in agreement, "yes, very soon." I sighed and inhaled the smoke again then exhaling. "how about today..?". Beau stood up, "please make it today....text her."

I slowly picked up my phone with one shaky hand and stared at her contact for a moment. Then i startrd texting her.

L: Can we please talk camz..? I really want to work this out....please?

I stared at the message for a while. I looked over at beau as he nodded in approval.

Sent

I exhaled with a shaky breath and waited for a while. I Inhaled from my fag longly as I exhaled the smoke, making a few smoke circles. Minutes later i recieved a text back.

C: Meet me at the park right now. Hurry.

I showed beau the text quickly and i got up as fast as i could. I was only wearing a top and jeans so thats fine. I Grabbed my favorite , leather jacket, my car keys and drove to the park quickly.

-

As soon as i got to the park i parked my car in a very clumsy position. I got out of my car and was greeted by a familiar pair of chocolate orbs looking at me. I ran to her and attempted to hug her but she just took a step back from me. Ouch. I stood there dumbfounded and hurt gleamed in my eyes. She studied me for a while. She looked worried. "Lauren.." she let out in a calm tone. "Camz.." i struggled to say as my heart was sinking slowly. "I need to talk to you" she said in nonchalantly as she lead me into a park bench and we both sat down in awkward silence.

"Why camz... why?" i asked her in a hurt tone as i looked at her in pleading eyes. She shook her head. "i just...I dont want to hurt you lauren." I shook my head with a sad smile plastered across my face. "It would be a priviledge to have my heart broken by you". Camila just shook her head, her eyes getting glossy from tears shes been trying to hold back. "no you dont understand lauren!", she raised her voice a bit, but luckily not much people were around. "yes, yes i do camz i-" but she cut me off.

"no you dont! I'm a grenade lauren and i can go off by any minute from now. I only have weeks and I just dont want to hurt you!". I put on a sad smile. "But you already did. And it was a true priviledge. I just want you back please?" She just shook hed head and tears formed in the corner of her eyes, but she wiped them away. "no, i chose austin and not you okay lauren!
I- I Dont Love You Lauren."

I could feel my heart sink in, i felt the pain seep through my chest i clutched hard onto my chest. Camz looked back at me in worry. I took in deep breathes and she just looked away from me.

did she just really say that?
did she really mean it?

"Camz please.." i pleaded "no lauren, i love austin and not you...and dont call me camz. Because one day you'll realize i did you a favor! I just dont want to affect you when i leave the earth!" I felt the hot tears slowly running down my cheeks. "but i still love you".

"but i dont love you! I never did. I only said it to make you happy....Okay? I choked in my own tears as i heard the word. our word. our always. just then, i saw her get up, and leave dragging her oxygen tank along with her, she got in her car and drove off.

I got up quickly, got in my car and locked the door, i screamed and kicked and cried my eyes out as i noticed it had started to rain hard.

I could hear the words echo in my head, causing slight headaches to take over me, I started having chest pains. I couldnt take this heartache. I love her so much. i dont want to let her go. How could i convince her to be with me again?

~

A/N: And the tear stream down my face aha quoting one direction! How'd you like this chapter? vote/comment for an update!!!!,xo