The Fault In Our Stars [camren edition]

Please be okay

Camilas POV

last night...After i told her about me and austin being engaged she literally flipped out. We argued for a long time and when we stopped she brought me home in silence. I cried once i reached my bedroom i regret telling her but she really needs to know. I only said yes to the marriage because austin threatened me to marry him.

I honestly regret saying yes now. I sighed deeply and thought how lauren was doing now. She must be too sad or mad to even speak to me.

Laurens POV

How could she do this to me?
How could she say yes to that douchebag?

I took a swig straight from the whiskey bottle and coughed. i realized my skin was really itchy and i feel like im losing weight. My jeans look big on me. I took another swig then sighing deeply.
She said she still loves me
Was she just playing with my feelings?

I took a couple of swigs more until i finished it and i tossed it on the pile if whiskey bottles that i set up on the corner of the room after my cleaning. Yes i actually cleaned my room now its less dirty, except for the corners. Last night was the worst night. once i dropped camz off i drove lighting speed back home and cried my heart out and got wasted. I drank about like, 10 bottles of whiskey trying to forget. I dont care if this stuff is strong i just want to forget!

The wedding is in a few weeks and i dont think im ready for this. I want to be the one to marry her, not the other way around! Austin doesnt deserve her at all. Austin deserves someone with low standards! Camila deserves someone with high standards um a.k.a Lauren Jauregui a.k.a Me.

I got up after feeling dizzy and i noticed i wasnt feeling well. i suddenly ran to the nearest bathroom and threw up in the toilet. I held my hair back as i threw up whats left in me. I coughed and gagged. Too much alchohol i thought in my head as i got up slowly to take another shower.

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After my shower i changed into confortable clothing and went over to the living room and watched on netflix. Suddenly my door opened and i wasnt surprised it was just luke and beau. "hey losers" i greeted them as they sat next to me on the couch. "hey jauregui so how are ya?" i shrugged "not so well..  camila just told me she and austin....well....theyre getting married" They both screamed, "WHAT?!?!" they looked at me waiting for me to say 'haha just kidding' but i didnt "yup its true." i said sadly. "and my skin has been killing me its itchy and im not feeling well and im always feel worn out!" They patted me on the back "must be depression, eh?" beau said nonchalantly. I shrugged my shoulders. "Hey lauren have ya been eating or what? you've awfully lost a lot of weight i just noticed" luke said in surprise and worry. "really? well maybe i wasnt feeling hungry just as much this week." i said as i sighed.

"you sure you okay laur?" beau asked, furrowing his eyebrows at me. "yeah im fine".

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Camilas POV

Its been hours and still no call or text from her! What on earth is she doing? Why hasnt she called my yet this whole day! And look at the time for fuck sakes! It about 10:30pm already! I sighed and threw my pillow across the room in frustration.

I yawned and stretched. Maybe she'll call tomorrow and just when i laid down i heard her ringtone in my phone i hurried and grabbed it and answered it.

"lauren?! what the heck i-"

"look this isnt lauren!".

I furrowed my eyes in confusion to the voice that didnt belong to her answered. It was deeper and not calm, sounded scared and panicked. "who are you and why do you have laurens phone?" The voice sighed, "look im luke, one of laurens best guy friends and please hurry shes at the hospital and its important and she wants you there!" he suddenly hung up on me.

i slowly put my phone down with shaky hands. I could feel my heart drop and my breathing was off. I got up and drove there as fast as i can.

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I arrived at the hospital carrying my oxygen tank i rushed to the front desk, "lauren jauregui???" "um room d19" "thanks!" i rushed over to her room and suddenly stopped by a pair of unfamiliar hands. i turned to face them. "who are you guys?" they look like theyve been crying. "um hi im jai, this is my other brothers luke and beau" he sniffled and my heart shattered. "so your laurens friends shes been talking about, and your the one who called me." she pointed at luke. Luke nodded. "whats wrong with her!" jai shrugged "we...we dont know. We were at her place and she was gonna get food on the kitchen, suddenly she just blacked out. doctors says you cant see her yet."

I looked over at her room and sighed.

"please be okay"

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Laurens in the hospital!! but why, you may ask? o: more to come!

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