goodbye. | ✔️

coming over

i placed the blade down and sliced.

ah, how satisfying.

the paper tore to shreds.

i continued shredding the paper with the blade, trying to get all my anger and frustration out.

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i finally went to school. i think i've skipped for about five days now.

"are you okay?" i was snapped out of my daze when kangdae appeared beside me.

"yea," i said hesitantly.

was i really?

i sighed and shook my head. "honestly? i'm not. i'm torn. i'm broken. i just want to- just want to live normally."

i couldn't even cry.

he put his arm around me and placed my head on his shoulder.

usually i'd be squealing inside but now i felt so numb, i couldn't feel anything.

"it's okay. i'm going through the same thing. i understand," he rubbed my arm up and down soothingly.

i mumbled in response as we walked towards the classroom.

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"oh, you live here too?" as he walked into the lobby with me.

"yea, been here for a while actually," he chuckled and put his hands into his pockets.

i nodded and waved goodbye.

he smiled and i turned towards my block.

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my phone rang on the kitchen table as i was dusting the photo frames.

i placed the feather duster down and walked over to my phone.

"hello?"

"hi, can i come over?" he asked.

"oh sure," i picked at my nails.

"are your parents home?"

i froze. my palms became sweaty.

"uh, no." i panicked. "they're working."

"oh, okay. see you later."

"wait, don't you need my a- " beep.

well, ok.

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