Shawn Mendes Imagines

Words I Didn't Say

His Pov

Every time we got closer, I pushed you away, Pulled you right back just to give you the pain, if I was your sinner, then you were my saint, guilty of breaking your heart.

The memories still haunt me, how I treated her, she was the best thing that ever happened to me, why the hell did I treat her the way I did? Every time we were about to get to closer, I fucking pushed her away, why am I so fucking stupid?
"JUST GET OUT OF HERE!" I close my eyes and put my face in my hands.

"I was a fucking dick to her." I say as I begin to cry, I continue to think about how I pulled her back into my life and just played her all over again, giving her more pain, the tears slowly streamed down my face.

"Why did I do that to her? I'm guilty of breaking her heart, and I can't fucking take it back." I say to myself.
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I lie here awake, thinking of all the games I played, I let you wait, hundreds of promises that I, I never made, I fell forever in a daze, 'Till you walked away, because of the words I didn't say.

Laying awake in my bed, looking at my clock, 3:12 A.M., I cant stop thinking about what I did to her, why did I do this stuff to her.

"I made so many promises to her, and I never kept one them, and I played so many games on her, I hate myself, I just wanna fix all this, I want her back, I want to treat her the way she should be treated, I want her to feel loved." I cry.

The memory of her walking away from me a few days ago haunts me, I remember she told me she hated me, she had her bags packed and just walked out, before she left I asked what it was I did, all she told me was it was because of the games I've played on her, and the words I didn't say to her.

"I need to find her." I say as I grab my phone to call her friend, I had to get her back.
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See, I can't live without you, I hope you forgive it, A world without you is a world without living.

Running in the rain up to her apartment, I stand in front of her front door, the rain covering the tears that are streaming down my face.

I knock on the door to her apartment, the minute she opens the door, I rush in and kiss her, I needed her to know I was sorry, at first she is surprised by my kiss, but slowly she starts to kiss back and tears begin to fall down her cheeks.

"I'm sorry, I love you so much (Y/N), please take me back, I miss you, I can't live without you, please forgive me, a world without you is basically a world without living, please just take me back, I can't fucking sleep, I can't eat, please, please." I beg her, I fall on my knees as I begin to cry even more.

She comes to her knees and pulls me in for a hug, and then says the words and then bring me to a hug.

"I've missed you too Shawn." She says as we both sit there, crying and hugging one another.

I hope the imagine made sense with the lyrics! 😂😂