Battle Scars (destiel AU)

Scared of Change.

Based on the song Scared of Change by Our Last Night.

Chapter 3:

I woke up to the soft sound or REO Speedwagon's "I Can't Fight This Feeling Anymore"

I wake up and angrily rub the sleep from my eyes. I hit the radio and shout "Yes i can!"

Slamming my face into my pillow, I make a loud groaning noise. I would deny my feelings for Dean Winchester as long as I can.

Saturday, what to do?

Dean. It all comes back to him. He is the only thing I can think about.

He's a jock but he's also punk, or whatever.

I really like him, but I'm poision. Ruining everything I touch. Dean is the kid my parents warned me about.

Then again so am I.

"Hey Castiel!" Gabe smiles, walking in. With out knocking.

"Tell me everything you know about Dean Winchester." I blurt.

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What I found out

-Captian of football team

-jock

-he likes metal

-"punk"

-POPULAR

-he's different though...

Like me. I'm a nerd. Big time. I have glasses, ya'know the whole shebang. (A/N weird word sorry) Except, I like metal, classic rock, punk. Also I "suffer" severe clinical depression.

I have lots of "problems". I guess.

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I stay in my bedroo all day listening to the same album over again. I read three books, which is like me.

Divergent

Insurgent

and Allegent

They were good, but not as good as a lot of other books I've read. Needless to say I read more than I talk to people. I look up fro the last page of Allegent and realize it's dark out.

Wow.

I turn to my digital clock. It reads

7:15 pm

There's a knock at my door.

"Come in," I state placing the book on the floor.

"Hey Castiel" Michael siles. I wave slightly.

"Go outside, get some air," He says

"There's air in here."

"You've up here all day."

"I'm fine"

"Have you eaten?"

"No"

"Go outside! We have a pool, I mean it's 7 but still..."

"Fine" I shrug. He smiles and leaves satisfied to get me to remove myself from my bedroom even if just for a bit. I stand and walk out of my room, right behind Michael. I don't bother to change out of my baggy sweat pants and t-shirt.

I slump out the back door, carefu to avoid the rest of my disfunctional family. I sit down on a wiry lawn chair randomly placed near the pool. I like the way the water looks under the moonlight.

The colours swirl in the small waves made by the wind. The light reflects beautifuly on the blue-gray water. I glance at my own reflection. But my glance turns into a stare. I look at the way the water morphs my face. Even though the water swirls my features one thing remains the same. The dark black cirlcles under my eyes. The sad. The tired. I let out a long sigh.

The chilly air stings the back of my throat.

"Dean..." I look up into his eyes. His beautiful eyes that remind me so much of springtime. Fresh cut grass. Just the beautiful plants finally growing after a long winter burried under snow.

"Yeah Cas?" I kept my new sexuality tomyself, i never really "came out" persay, but it was kind of a thing we just knew. Nobody said anything about it though. It was unspoken.

"I'm gay."

"No shit." Dean just rolls his eyes at me. I glare back.

"Let me fuckin' finish you idiot. But, im still, kinda, in the closet."

"Again, no shit babe! Tell me something I don't know,"

"My brother is bi," Shit. Gabe never said I could tell anyone. But I can trust Dean.

"That I did not know"

"Really?"

"Yeah, I mean I just thought he was a flirt"

"No, he is bisexual"

"Mm" He picks up my hand and tangles his fingers with mine. Our fingers fit awkwardly together. His ring digs slightly into the side of my hand. I mean I don't mind.

I sigh.

"I suppose I should tell Michael, Adam, and Gabe."

"Yeah. That might be a good idea"

"That's sarcasm right?"

"Yes Cas. It's sarcasm."

Hey sorry this chaptet is so short! I just had to get something posted for you guys!!  Please leave your feed back!!! ily sm

~Abby