Falling apart

8~ smile

So that's what we did. We put our masks back on, and paid for the meals.

That shit was so expensive, oh my gosh! What did I expect? I guess I'll have to eat noodles for the rest of the month.

Anyways, we got out of the restaurant, and went into their huge car. It was a minivan with 9 seats!

"How many members are in your group?" I asked.

They looked at me like if I had to know, but hey I simply watch them on TV or listen to their music on the radio!

"I didn't think about counting y'all on TV, I prefer enjoying the music!"

"We have 7 members" Yoongi immediately answered.

"So you really don't know anything about our group?" Jungkook asked me kinda shocked again.

"I know some of your songs but I don't really know about you guys. Well of course I know wHo iS bTs" I answered making a little bit fun of them.

"Do you even listen to k-pop?" Jin asked.

"I mean, we live in Korea, who doesn't?" Hoseok assumed.

"I listen to k-pop because that's what is on the radio, but I know way more about american music"

"Oh yeah I see" Hoseok said.

We got to the club and went straight to the VIP section. They paid for it, I couldn't waste anymore money after the extremely expensive meal that we just had. I explained it to them, and they kindly accepted to pay.

In short you know what happens in clubs, you dance, hang out with your friends, and drink.

I ended up pretty wasted and didn't see the messages that Sooyun sent me saying that he would pass by my apartment.

We left the club around 4:30am.

"Alright so one of us has to help you to get safe in your place" Jin said "It's between you guys, I'm too tired".

Jungkook was already sleeping and Hoseok was almost as wasted as I was.

We got in front of my place so I opened the car door and took Yoongi's hand for him to follow me because he was by my side. His eyes widened a little bit when I did.

I almost fell down when I tried to get out of the minivan but I was able to maintain my balance.

Therefore we had to climb the stairs all the way to the 4th floor because the elevator was broken. But I was drunk and didn't really remember where I was.

"Yoongi? Whe- where are we going a- again?" I said pouting.

He looked at me with a weird face.

"Your apartment?" he answered, "so can you please hurry up and find it? I want to go back home and sleep."

"Okay, okay, don't need to be so rude."

I stopped climbing the steps again and said "so th-this is where I live right?"

"I guess?"

"Okay."

My eyes were closing a bit. I was going so slow that we were on the 2nd floor still.

"Yoongi?"

"What agai-"

He didn't finish his sentence because I tried to touch his arm but almost fell down the stairs.

I have a problem with me falling down I swear.

"I want to sleep."

"We're almost at your apartment, so hurry up"

We finally got up there, after 10 minutes maybe. Lucky me, I had put the code to open my door on my phone and remembered that it was there.

I typed it in.

"Than- Thank you. For wh- whatever we did today or tonight?" I said, "Y'all are great friends" I leaned over and kissed his cheek. Then I started laughing, and before he could say anything I waved at him and entered my apartment.

My eyes widened when I saw someone sleeping on my couch. But I recognized Sooyun immediately.

I lightly shook his arm to wake him up.

"Sooyun? Wha- what are you doing here?"

While I was sitting down next to him he slowly woke up. After a minute or two he asked me "are you drunk?"

"Of course I am, you idiot" I giggled.

"I texted you" he said.

"No you didn't" I took out my phone to check and yes he did.

I showed him the notifications and simply told him that I didn't see it.

He furrowed his eyebrows.

"Who the hell is this with you as your lockscreen??" he started yelling.

I wasn't down for any of this bullshit. It may be egoist of me but he should've come see me instead and I wouldn't have been out with them.

"Chill. It's Yoongi, a- a friend, I went out wi- with him and other friends. Well I- I think we were 4? But sin- since you told me that you cou- couldn't come here..." I stuttered.

He looked so disappointed. But nothing happened with any of them, right?

"Did you have fun with them?"

"Yes I did."

Afterwards I got up and made my way to the kitchen to drink some water and sober up.

When I felt better I got back to the living room. He was messaging someone, I looked at my phone, at 5 in the morning.

"Aye, are you alright?" I asked him, "You look a little down lately"

He looked up at me. He had a sad smile on his face, and his eyes were watery.

I was still up next to the couch so I finally sat down next to him.

Therefore I hugged him tightly, he needed it. He patted my hair slowly, his hands were a little bit shaking.

In fact he smelled so good.

"Hey baby, it's alright to cry. And if you don't want to say it now it's okay I understand. Be strong tho, whatever it is. I love you. I love you so much. Take care of you, will you? I don't like seeing you like this."

I wasn't fully sober yet, my voice still sounded like a baby's.

I looked up at him. He was really crying now. I swiped off his tears and kissed him softly.

Then I got myself back into his chest.

"Whenever you need a hug, come here love. Don't forget that we're one. And again I'm sorry for tonight."

Again I looked up at him and smiled, I tried to make the brightest one I could so it would make him happy. And it did. He smiled back at me. It was the most beautiful smile ever.

But then I remembered Yoongi's.