13:21 pm
I didn't write an entry yesterday, I spent the day with my boyfriend and didn't find the time to do it.
I don't want him to find out I'm writing this, or at least I don't want him to see it.
I've been having very realistic dreams lately, don't know if that's good or bad.
I also have a lot more nightmares than I used to, apparently it's due to my medication, not sure how that works.
Anyway I had a terrible night of sleep, I don't feel energised at all, I think I'm more tired than before I went to bed.
My back hurts like hell and every movement makes me feel like I'm gonna die lol.
Anyway, I have my first appointment with a psychologist at 4, we'll see how that goes, I hope it's not too expensive.
What else can I say, I don't really know. I spend my days at home, so my life isn't all that interesting, and it never was.
It's also my first time keeping a diary, I started the "year in pixels" in 2018, but it doesn't require any writing abilities haha, maybe I'll post a couple pictures sometime.
Anyway I should start to paint my face, I don't know how long it takes to get there so I better be ready early, and it can take me up to an hour to do my makeup.
05:43 pm
I came back from my appointment, it's not what I thought it would be. I'm used to seeing doctors or psychiatrists so I'm used to be told what to do, but here she's just here to listen and ask questions. Also it only lasted 30 minutes, which I'm not used to but it's fine.
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Living with depression and anorexia
Non-FictionI think the title is pretty self explanatory, this is a diary of my very wierd life as a 20 year old depressive anorexic. I have no idea if a trigger warning is needed, but obviously if you're sensitive to descriptions of vomiting, self harming, and...
