I have unhealthy old habits coming back, and new ones creeping in
I started throwing up again, but who is surprised anymore right? Not me
I'm thinking about cutting again, and that can't be good
Each day is getting worse and I don't know what more I can do
I go to a psychologist twice a week, a psychiatrist once a month, I'm on Zoloft and xanax, and it just does not help enough
The only effect I used to notice while on Zoloft was that it was hard for me to cry, like I couldn't do it. But now I'm crying AT LEAST once a day, and it can go up to 4 or 5 times a day.
Now to new habits
I started crochet and knitting, I like it, it's fun, but I'm spending way too much time and money on it
Speaking of money, I don't know how to manage it anymore
I spend it all on clothes I don't need and it makes me happy for a while, but then I just want more
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Living with depression and anorexia
Non-FictionI think the title is pretty self explanatory, this is a diary of my very wierd life as a 20 year old depressive anorexic. I have no idea if a trigger warning is needed, but obviously if you're sensitive to descriptions of vomiting, self harming, and...
