Love Everlasting {Helsa}

Memories

The sun is brighter than it was yesterday, the whole village is still at work to repair all damages... I created. I feel truly awful that my people have to suffer through the destruction, all because I couldn't control the curse!

When I was first born, it seemed that nobody knew why I was born with the gift of ice and snow. My father had thought it was a present from God, but after what I did to Anna... he saw it as a curse. I shut my eyes, why must I always go back to this? This isn't my fault, I was merely gifted and I should be thankful to even be alive.

Knock knock.

I face my bedroom door, at first I was thinking it was Kai, but then I realize I haven't seen Anna since yesterday. I light up with excitement.

"Anna?!"

"No, your majesty. It's just me." My excitement fades, it's only Kai as I presumed.

"Oh, what can I do for you Kai?" How come Anna hasn't come to see me? She promised that every morning she would...

"Our visitor has requested that you bring him his meal again." I scrunch my noise in distaste, I really don't want to see him. Especially when I'm upset about my sister, but it's just a meal. It's the least I can do while my staff is helping repair the village. I get up from my bed and walk towards my bedroom door, I had already dressed this morning, so I'm prepared for the day.

I open the door to reveal Kai standing with a smile and a tray. I take the tray gently with my hands and begin to walk towards the dungeons. As I walk pass the big paintings in the hall, I begin to think of the song that Hans was singing yesterday in his cell. Love is an open door...? Ha! That's obscured.

Again my mind drifts elsewhere as I think of my mothers song, the song she used to sing to me as a little girl...

"Dancing bears, painted wings

Things I almost remember, and a song

Someone sings

Once upon a December

Someone holds me safe and warm, horse prance through a silver storm,

Figures dancing gracefully across my memory...

Far away, long ago

Glowing dim as an ember

Thing my heart used to know,

Things it yearns to remember...

And a song someone sings,

Once upon a December."

I hadn't realized I was singing, nor had I realized I was in the dungeon facing Hans' cell. Again, there are no guards at the door, no guards at sight.

"That song..." Hans says, "where did you get that from?" I look at Hans with confusion and shock. He had heard me sing! Ugh, how embarrassing.

"Where are my guards?" I decide to avoid his question and ask a serious question. My guards always obey and follow orders.

Hans just continues to stare at me and not say a word, it's utterly rude.

"Hans, for goodness sake, where are my guards?" Again Hans doesn't answer, then he speaks.

"Not until you tell me where you heard that song." I look at him with confusion, why would he want to know about my mothers song? It's quite pointless, but I want answers, and I won't get them unless Hans gets his.

"Fine, it was my mothers song. She sang it to me when I was little." I look away, talking about my mother brings back so many memories. My father was always there for me, but my mother never left, she stayed in my room pass the wee hours of the night to make sure I was alright. She always sang and read to me, when she... passed, I felt like I had nothing. I had Anna of course, but at the time... I hadn't seen her in almost thirteen years.

My head begins to throb, thinking of my parents brings me awful stress.

"Now, where are my guards?" I push my memories aside, they're too painful. Besides, I'm wondering where my guards are? Why aren't the here like I ORDERED them to?

"That was your mothers song?" Hans replays. I close my eyes in frustration.

"Hans... please just answer my question. Where are the guards?" Hans doesn't reply, he doesn't move, he doesn't do anything! I'm honestly on edge, all I want to know is where my guards are and this little br-

"My mother used to sing me that song too." My thought halt, what?

"Pardon me?"

Hans looks at me with sadden eyes and frowns, then he speaks.

"My mother used to sing me that song, when I was younger. It was her favorite... she had the most beautiful voice too. I remember her saying that the song was of a Snow Queen who lost her memory, the Snow Queen had never felt loved and she wanted so badly to find her way..." I was taken aback by his words. Snow Queen? Like- li-ke me?

"Oh, well it seems that our mothers have a similar taste in... music."

"Had." Hans says.

"Pardon?" I ask in confusion.

"My mother passed away when I was thirteen." Hans words bring the memories back, the memories of my parents.

"I see, so have mine. They passed only three years ago..." I overt my eyes away before the tears can come, it's been so long but the memory is so fresh.

"Yes, I know. My brother, Augustus, attended the funeral." I nod my head.

"Oh, that's very thoughtful of him. Is he the only brother you have?" Hans chuckles at my question.

"No, I have twelve older brothers, Augustus is the oldest out of all of us." My eyes widen in shock. Twelve?!

"Goodness! That's a lot of children." Hans nods in agreement with a smile, and a moment later, the smile disappears.

I begin to feel sorry for him, being locked up and all. I know how it feels, after I had been taken from my ice castle in the Northern Mountain, oh how I miss that place. I was so free.

"Is that my food?" Hans' words pull me from my thoughts and to the tray in my hands.

"Oh! Yes, it is. I apologize, I hadn't realized that I haven't given it to you." How could I forget the reason I had come down here? I put the tray through the opening in the door, as Hans grabs the tray, his hands brush against mine. I don't pull away, his hands are warm and look strong... No! I hand him the tray completely and pull back. What am I thinking, how dare I have such thoughts? It's terrible!

"Thank you..."

"Your welcome." I reply.

Hans begins to eat and all is silent. I can't help but look at him... he's handsome. I know I shouldn't have thoughts about him in such a manner, but it's true. Hans completes his meal and hands me the tray. I take it and begin to walk away, but his words stop me.

"Why would you shut Anna out?"

~Once Upon a December~

Movie: Anastasia