Love Everlasting {Helsa}

Like Stars

-ELSA

I didn't want to feel sorry for myself, I have spent so much time feeling like I'm the problem. Yes, my life is a mess and life hasn't been very kind to me, but I am Queen of Arendelle, and I have obligations, and those obligations start with my well-being. After sitting in my room feeling sorry for myself, I had to force myself to come to the realization that I needed to let Hansel go. Yes, I loved... love him. But these accusations of trolls and him coming to Arendelle for me is too farfetched for me to handle. I want to believe him, I do, but I have to come to the realization that I wanted to believe him because I wanted a happy ending. I didn't want someone else who I loved to leave me, I didn't want to lose anyone else. C'mom Elsa... that's just not how life works. I realize that now.

I know I had told Anna that I didn't want to attend the lighting ceremony tonight, but now, I find myself stepping outside of the gates and stepping my way through the crowd. I'm a little late and the townspeople are beginning to light their lanterns to release into the sky.

This has always been one of my favorite traditions. When I was younger and I was forced into hiding, my dad would allow me to go out only at night. It sounds horrible, I know, but at the time, it felt necessary. He would always ask me what I loved most about the world and my answer would always be the stars. They are millions of miles away but that never stopped me from admiring them. Loving something I couldn't touch. Right now, that feels like my life, but back then it was just a fascination. Loving something you could see but couldn't really understand.

*flashback*

"Wow... they are incredible! There are so many of them, everywhere I turn they just keep appearing!"

My dad giggles at my excitement, "They are quite exquisite, aren't they?" I nod and continue to admire the sky. He then takes my hand and guides me to a nearby bench. We sit and stay silent for a moment and allow the world around us to consume us.

"You know," my father breaks the silence, "I have a theory about the stars." I immediately sit up in excitement. I lay my head on his chest and he embraces me.

"What's the theory?!" I exclaim and he smiles.

"Well, my theory is that the stars we see at night are all the lives that have past before us. They light up the earth when the Sun goes down and they get to watch their lives continue without them being here on Earth."

"WOW... so wait, when we are no longer here, we will become stars?"

"I would like to think so."

"But..." I begin to feel sadness wash over me. "I don't want to live in a world without you..."

My father quickly pulls me closer and reassures me.

"I will never leave you, Elsa, even when my time on this earth runs out, all you have to do is look to the sky and know I am with you."

*end of flashback*

After that night, my father had made a tradition that each year, the town would release hundreds of lanterns into the sky. He knew that there were some days that my powers would consume me and I wasn't always able to leave the castle to see the stars, so the lanterns would stand in their place. So no matter how down I was feeling, or how sad I was, I would see the lanterns and would know that the stars would still be waiting for me when I was ready.

I begin to feel tears form but before I could let a tear fall, the townspeople begin to release the lanterns and I watch as they gaze towards the sky. People smile and awe at the sight but I can't help but look passed the lanterns and towards the sky to where I know my father is, among the stars I can see, but can never touch.