ceo; pjm (cringe af do not read)

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make sure to read authors note at the end, i'll be explaining a LOT!
some of y'all wanted a POV for Jimin, and here you go.
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"what?" Jungkook's hand was now not on my own anymore.

"y-ye-" i was cut off by Jimin who suddenly yelled some heartbreaking words,

"he is absolutely right, babygirl." Jimin winked at me, tearing my broken heart into pieces. i couldnt say anything- what was he saying?

"i-i know..." i tried not to cry in front of him again, i didnt even know what to think at the moment. he was breaking me, he was making me crazy and he knew it.

he fucking knew he was killing me, but he continued.

"b-but, can you tell me one thing, mr Park?" i mumbled, surprised that my voice didnt break down.

he gave me a small smirk and nodded. i looked at Jungkook who was clenching his teeth. his cheeks were red from anger.

i sighed and blinked once, twice, and wiped my tears.

"you dont like me, r-right?"

Jimin's POV

i love you.

i didnt know how to answer her, she was trying so hard not to break down in front of me.

she was dying, and i was the cause of it.

but if i told her i loved her, she would expect too much. i cant to this, she is too innocent and loving, she cares about people, and i dont. the only person i have ever cared for was my mother- and now sang ki.

i didnt want this.

i didnt want to catch feelings for her, i just wanted to play. play, maybe if i broke her and made her forget about her feelings for me- i could move on myself.

i couldnt stand seeing here like this, but i kept on going. i was doing this for her.

i wouldnt be able to treat her properly- and she deserves so much better than me.

but why? why was she making this all so much harder for me, she was crying.

both of them were waiting for an answer, Jungkook looked furious and my baby was at the edge of crying.

i didnt want to see her cry anymore. i didnt want to break her, but that was exactly what i was doing.

i gave both if them a forced smirk. they couldnt see what i felt behind my glasses, i was relieved to know that they couldnt.

thanks, sunglasses.

i looked at my baby, and my smirk instantly dropped. she was biting her lips, shifting around ucomfortably and she was forcing herself to smile through teary and glossy eyes. she knew what i would say.

i fucking love you, and i cant stand seeing you around Jungkook. or any other boy, but i have to do this baby,

"i do- dont!" i corrected myself. i didnt know how those words slipped out of my mouth, but i wasnt going to stay here and watch my baby's tears cry. i couldnt stand that.

her face dropped, and she closed her eyes, giving me a forced grin. Jungkook just stared with an emotion i wasnt able to figure out.

she looked beautiful. she was beautiful. she was perfect. and i was ruining her. she had eyebags under her eyes, she didnt look like herself, she didnt smile and laugh as much as she usually would. she was hurting so much.

because of me.
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i know, y'all can be mad if you want to THIS WAS SHORT NOO- BUT I'LL DO A DOUBLE UPDATE ❤

YASSS SO NOW YOU KNOW WHAT JIMIN FEELS LIKE BUT I'LL EXPLAIN AGAIN:

Jimin loves her. He loves her, but he isnt sure if he is ready to show her how much he loves her. he had a complicated past with a girl before, and he didnt want the same to happen to sang ki. he wants her to forget him.

so, yup!

i love you all, stay healthy my chickens ❤