Story Of My Life

15 EXTRA My Personality Reveal

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Some times you denied to other who you are even if people can see who you really are and how you are your act or how you react to them or even without talk the expression talk more that billion world.

Personality disorder of type A Paranoid, schizoid,Schizo-typic i have A and B both mix.

Key:  isolation (i always get away from everyone and i prefer to stay alone),  Self-grant: Self-sufficient and lonely(i have that feel and tipe to never need the help of none one even if i need it based it on me only because i feel alone like none one in my side to trust ), Values independence (hard to explain but i i always control my independent), Conception of others: Intruders (some times i think they going to enter on my life and try to know everything about me to talk to others behind my back is hard these day for me to trust someone after all i been thought in my life), Harass and Corral: (Also i feel some times like someone follow me to ask,questions or get inform about me that i don’t like to share more like harass or they going to corral me where is no where to escaped to bullied me or hurt my feeling or myself )

Threat: Feel limited(some times i feel limited about what i say,look or talk to never shared my private life and limited what i can do or what i can’t do and examine the situation before act.) Strategy: hold off ( i always have distance between everyone and hide i a corner where everyone can questions me,talk to me to know more inform about me or never have problem or trouble with anyone) Do not get involved (i also try not to get involved in anything so is anything run happen is not my fault or i think maybe something bad will happen and i be save to better no be involved in anything strange or normal) Effects: Low level of sadness while staying at a distance (i some times feel sadness while staying away from everyone like i want to talk to this person or be friends but why if that person don’t like me or react bad, or something happens i better stay in distance for my own safety even if is hurt been alone and not try to been friends or even try to talk)  Anxious about a close encounter (i can talk and be myself something after someone know me or been close to me like always come to me to talk and be friendly i can like that in a good way not bad one )  Cold( I see there’s something going on I don’t understand why you’re so cold like maroon 5 say yes i am cold too i don’t have feeling or show my emotion to a point i never cry before only when i was a little kids that my mom discipline me i cry the reasons is my past and people that turn me cold)  Distant (again i prefer to be alone than with be people is part of my personality to talk and keep distant) Reserved: (I am slow to reveal emotion or opinions to anybody i am quiet,reserved my private life, anti social and keep it to myself )

They believe - Nuclear: I am alone (i always feel like that way) Relationships with other people do not compensate, they are disastrous (i always think i will some times will end in a disaster with someone) I can do things better if others do not disturb me (I feel also thinking i do thing better is people don’t bother me like better alone than a bad company) Close relationships are undesirable because they interfere with my freedom of action (i always think like i can’t dance or sing in front of this person and i can’t have my freedom space if you know what i means by that ) Conditional: If I got too close to people, I’m going to nail their graphics (like if i get to close to them they going to graphics me their problems and issues something i never want to deal with because i am afraid to give the run advice or don’t know how to answer ) Instrumental: Do not get too close (because i think some times something will happens to me) Keep the distance (like we can be friend but but with a distant to not be to close friends) Do not commit (like i don’t like to commitments something i will not do or forget or even pass or makes promises only to say i will try to be there or see if i can go without the commit to be force to do it )
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ersonality disorder type B Anti social, Histrionic, Limit, Narcissist
Histrionic: General pattern of excessive emotionalism and pursuit of care (I always try to get all the attention to me and some times i make drama so all the faces look at me and get what i want even if i end hurting what i love to have all the love and attention to myself and try to be the victim of like oh so sad look at that kids he so right if you get me a way to not feel alone and only happen with the closes people around me with people outside some times if i know them)
Causes: Insufficiency of stimuli received in the first year, His objects of inanimate affection will be preferred to humans, Rigid family atmosphere (i been there they discipline me with belt and saddle and never feel the hug or a kiss from my parents only disciplined and never love effects that why i never have feeling,cold or i look like a guy from the military ) Fragmented family communication ( A dysfunctional family is a family in which conflicts, misconduct, and often abuse by individual members occur continuously and regularly i know how is feel like for been the good kids they abused of you and thread you like a marionette )
Key: Expressiveness (when i know someone really good i am expressive some times) Conception Of Oneself: Lovely (I am lovely with everyone one when they come to me and i cause good impression to others) Great (i have good quality like helping others and always be there to help when is need it on anything they want or need me to do) Worthy of attention (eater i ignored someone or try to do thing for attention like i don’t know how to do it can you help even if some times i know it to see how the person will do or react ) Conception Of Others: They see them favorably as long as they gain their attention and affection, and amuse them (that me sometimes i look for attention when i know again someone and try to effect them in a positive way and makes them have a smile and laugh )

Also the Shack Movie tough me something i haven done in my life yet and since them i start working on it

Black Girls Means God

Young Boy Means Jesus Chris

Young Girl means Holy Spirit

The Women With The White Dress Means Wisdom

Old Man Means Forgiveness

The Water Means Sins Forgiven And Washed also means Trust Him And Not Sink Into Sin

Tears Means To Grow Back And Bury The Past Behind
Everything is for a reasons and this is the reasons i have these thing on me not that i want it in my life i need to fix it but past and people in the past also makes you turn into what your personality is today but little by little i will fix it and become more social and friendly and less cold or none expression but yes that my personality that why i say one time i feel i have double life or double personality one of the reasons why maybe because i am both A and B i will work hard on that one and this is the end of the extra i hope you maybe identify has me or feel you have one of these for sure or maybe both end of my story and after this one for sure i will click public and everything will change forever after this last type i am doing right now i have so many feeling,emotion and even doubt but one thing i am sure is to be secured and confident of what i am doing i hope one day i be the person i wanna be or find who i wanna be by dear me,myself and I…  based on a true and real story of my life being shared right now.