Story Of My Life

Page 4 Silence Explodes And Secrets Are Reveals

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2001 9 at that time i remember have a girl that i play James bones games with Nintendo 64 she was like one of the kindness person i met even if i feel like a storm was inside of me she always bring me a smile in my darkness time of my life she never fails me also there was another girls that was the opposite they use me one time time to enter in a broken cars old one 2 of them saying i will get undress if you do strip on us i make them happy and get undress i knew is was run what i was doing but at that point i knew my life was a mess they saw every part of me they laugh and say we used you to see you naked they run and left me alone there i almost cry even if i like that i least a girl saw me at the same time i feel like they used me only to be a sexual pleasure the one i say in the chapter before name Micol he take me one night to the barber shops is was close but i guy live there at night like half barber shops and half house he was not one of guy saw in the morning cutting hair i never see him before he was like 20 something young them when he say i going to shower brb Micol put me in a trap i was going home to go to the bathroom and stay home them he say why you don’t to the bathroom and pee there i say no is run there someone showering i don’t like to enter when is someone else there them he say nothing run going to happen i go there to pee and them the guy say are you watching me showering i say no because i was peeing to get out fast but he was thinking i enter to saw him showering i was so embarrassed that i run home and the worse is that when one time was going to cut my hair for surprise he appears that day and tell all the barber shops i saw him showering even if i never see him and i was with my face looking at the floor  them i only want is to hide and run i tell the barber shops i was going to pee not to watch him they never believe me and told me that was run even if i only knew the only run thing i did was not going home to go myself and make another biggest mistake.

after all that there come the biggest twist of my life one night there a guy with all the enemies saying we going to play hide and seek  i knew something run going to happen but since i was a kids i was more excited at the game that what going to happen at night with darkness i remember there was a big truck in the mechanic with the door open i hide there behind the wheel but when the same guy that offers the game hide in the same place i was like i knew i feel a bad feeling about this game he was like almost in his 20s he say let enter in the truck they never going to find us there that when he get out of his pocket a knife and say if you don’t do what i say or scream i will kill you them he rape me while he have a knife in my neck i remember his face and the worse is that his bro find us he was so shock that he do nothing he only just stay there watching and enjoy with a little evil laugh of what happening and do nothing to stop it that where i realize that i need to stop thinking and give a risk to save my life and talk the true to my mom when i get home she knew something bad happen but she say what run??? them i was like nothing them my mom ask again are you sure??? them i cry and say you know i can’t take it anymore i reveal her all the true about what happen that night i explode my silence and speaks the true all my secrets was out in one person but what she never knew is that i never reveal who start everything and all the others who rape me before that night that was the worse night of my life that makes me realize that i can’t keep quiet anymore after that day my life was never the same again all my family knew about that embarrassing moment that was not my fault,plus all the kids in middle school find out and the neighbor hood know what happens to me with laugh and making fun of me more like bullying even if i went to doctor and court they find him and he was on jail i was happy that i least one of my nightmare was paying for what they do but in another hand i was mad that people judge me thinking was my fault not his fault or that i turn Gay just because they rape me i was living hell.

With all the bullying all i know is that No One notice i was breaking inside they break my glass.

The speaker is their voices and the glass is how their voices break me inside.

The hands is like how everyone want to enter in my life and break the glass without knowing nothing the real true i only know and keep until now….because none one notices I WAS BREAKING INSIDE.

2002 10 we realize we need to end this traumatic chapter and make a new beginning in another neighborhood where none one know about us that where we move to a bigger house but where??? you find out soon…