I Want What I Can't Have

Chapter six

"Okay, last ride is the ferris wheel! Last one there is a rotten egg!" Louis announced in a funny voice. We all took off towards the ferris wheel, pushing through all the people, and Zayn was the last one. We all caught our breath, trying hard not to laugh. "Zayn's the rotten egg! Guess he has to sit with Ariana." Lou teased.

"Yeah, yeah. Very funny Louis." I stuck my tongue out at him and wrapped my fingers around Zayn's wrists. "Come on, Zayn. Lets get in!" I pulled him to the open seat that was waiting to be filled. The worker took my giant teddy bear that I won earlier, telling me I couldn't have it. I playfully pouted, then looked over at Zayn who looked as if he was going to be sick. I put a hand on top of his, taking it off when I got his attention.

"Zayn..." I hesitantly said. He kinda shook his head back to reality.

"Yeah? Sorry."

"Nervous?"

"I'll be fine." He put on a fake nervous smile. Wow, that was like deja vu of the airplane ride. I scrunched my nose, scooting a little closer to him. He gave me a warm grin and let his arm fall over my shouders. All night, we've been a little flirty with each other. Honestly, I don't think it's cause I have feelings for him, but probably just because he's cute and my dad specifically said no funny business. Oops.

The ride startd moving and everybody was on by the time we did one complete circle. I cheered along with some other people, then looked over at Zayn. The wind was blowing through my hair and all the lights in the fair that we passed looked like blurry streaks. "See, not so bad?"

"Not so bad!" He repeated, but tightened his grip on the pole that was fastened over our laps. It's almost as if on cue, the ferris wheel stopped. Guess where we were? Right. On. Top.

"We are having some technical difficulties. We'll fix these as soon as possible, but for now, just sit back and relax." A stuffy intercom voice called over.

"Technical difficulties? Ain't no time for that!" I heard Louis sing from under us. I took a deep breath, looking down to the ground then quickly jolting back to the position I was in, making the cart rock. The screetching noises that it made echoed in my ears, freaking me out even more. My body was stiff at how high we were. This is exactly what I didn't want. Zayn sighed, rubbing his forehead with his hand. Oh god, please get me down.

"Zayn...Zayn..ZaynZaynZaynZayn..." I said in quick breaths. "Get. Me. Down!" I shrieked. He threw his arm around me again, pulling me close. I closed my eyes and began taking deep breaths.

"We're okay, babe. Just...let's just talk, maybe it'll soothe your nerves." He slightly laughed, but still had an uneven shaky tone to his voice. I smiled up at him, remembering that's how he tried to soothe my nerves on the plane. Man, was this fate trying to tell me to get with Zayn or something? Cause it's like I'm getting a second chance to talk to him, with the same conversations and all, just...stuck on a ferris wheel instead of a plane. And this time, I'm willing to give effort to the conversation. "Tell me why you're here with Paul."

I sat up and sunk my teeth into my bottom lip, trying to think of where to start. "Well, about a year ago, my mum got sick of raising me alone and my dad always being gone, so she left us. I honestly think she was in love with somebody else and just coming up with excuses, but I'll never know. God, I hate her for leaving us, but I miss her. And so since my dad has to travel with you guys, he's making me come with. Normally when you guys would travel in the UK or come to America for a couple of days, I would just stay with friends, but I guess you're a lot more popular now. So I get to come to America and Australia!" I ended that note with a dash of sarcasm.

"Yay!" Zayn laughed, throwing his hands in the air. "So, you mentioned something about a boyfriend on the airplane.."

"Yeah, uh...Dalton. Right, we dated for two years and when I told him I was leaving, he erm..he didn't really take it that well. You know, me traveling with five heartthrobs wasn't a good idea. Plus, he wasn't really into the whole long distance relationship, so we made a deal that if I waid for him, he'll wait for me." I shrugged. Zayn scrunched his nose.

"You really think you both can keep that deal?" The way he emphasized both made me lift my eyebrows.

"Who knows. Maybe somebody else will come along." I whispered in a low, teasingly sexy voice. Well at first it was meant to be a tease, then we both just sat there staring at each other. I started with his eyes..those adorable puppy brown eyes with long eyelashes. And his defined cheek bones, perfectly straight teeth, his plump lips. This boy was perfect. His little tongue swiped over his bottom lip, leaving it clossy. We both had the same idea.

Our heads tilted and leaned in, and right as I could feel his breath on my lips, the ferris wheel started to move. We sprung back, sitting probably as far away from each other as possible, realizing that we almost kissed. The only thing I could hear were the cheers of the other riders...other than that, me and Zayn were silent.