Forbidden Love .

11_ All my fault

Lillia P.O.V 

Darknees , emptiness , silence But above all i can't feel nothing But Loneliness . Look around you lillia , No one is here for you Just you and your broken bones , just you and your pain to accompany you , you are nothing but worthless . that what he wanted me to feel , his words started to get into my head but no i'm not letting this happen , i am stronger than this , i can do it . Someone will notice me , Someone will come for me . Adam , Alex they are coming , they are always here for me .

Hours passed and they feel like forever , the night came and it embrace me all with the darkness , the night was sour just like my body . who i am fooling i can't do this , i am anything but strong . the next thing i knew that i was completely on the floor now , my eyes are heavy and i am paralyzed , i can't move a finger and i just was someone to come but that not gonna happen any sooner , i'm just here seeing my blood flooding on the floor and my soul drifting away .

Alex P.O.V 

I felt horrible . Now that the night came , made me realize all my mistakes and my flaws . i was horrible with her , the thing that everyone did to her , the thing that made me angry to the bone , i am doing it . Bainling on her , Leaving her alone . 

She must be mad as hell , and i don't blame her , i was such a jerk at her . she was afraid and i wasn't there for her , i was pushing thing . that's why i hate to get mad because i don't behave my best and i took it on her . her among all of people , i am such a horrible person .

my thoughts were i snapped when i heard the doorbeel rang , i was hoping it would be her but i was just stupid , she would never come .

" Adam ? " , at first i was shocked seeing him at my doorsteps but then i thought maybe lillia sent him here to talk thing true but that was just not convincing .

" I'm so sorry , i came here without warning but i am worried sick and i don't know what to do , i am so worried and afraid , and i don't know what to do ", he talking so fast i didn't catch all the words but i know he was worried and surely freaking out .

"Adam , just stop . calm down . " , I Put my hands on his shoulders and steadied him so he can stop pacing out and he seems like he was calm a little bit .

" Good , Now come in and tell me everything . " , I saw fear on his face and this was a new side of him , he was always strong , tough but this time he was diffent like he was lost .

" Lillia , She is missing ." , my heart dropped the second he said her name , now i can't think straight , all my fault . 

" She didn't came home this after noon , i thought maybe she is with you and your friends but then the night fell and it didn't seem like she would do something like that , especially when dad is not here , and with my phone missing i can't call her , maybe iam freaking out but with the look on your eyes i know you didn't see her either which gonna make me freak out more , so please stop me . " , his last words came as a whisper but i can't do anything about it i'm freaking out too and all my mind know is it was all my fault .

" Okay , we can't just stay here we have to do something about it , let's go and search for her , does she have any friends " , when i utter those words i knew i was just being stupid , i am her only friend that's why adam came here . he looked at me deafeted .

" She is not with me and clearly not with me , then where is she ? , does she have any place she goes to when she is upset ? " .

" Not any place that i know of , she barely get out alone . she is always at the house or the college"

" Yeah , that's it maybe she is at the collge " , i was running out of option and clearly of time , i just want to find her .

" Alex , can't you see the time . college is closed , she can't be there . "

" I don't care , let's just search it won't harm us , i will hunt this city upside down if i didn't find her this night . "

I don't know how we made it to the colleger i was so worried , so occupied . i don't even remeber the road , it was all blur , everything is and her face will be the only light .

sure we didn't made it so easy inside , the guard didn't let us in and this was the first time i was so grateful to be rich .

after we made it adam and i were separated to win time if she is here , i was just running so lost , i don't know were to head , the classes , the garden , the halls she is nowhere . and i'm feeling so sour and so mad at my self .

I fell at the floor so deafeated , i've felt this hopeless in my life . if didn't act like that earlier , if i was nice to her , if i understood her , she wouldn't be missing , adam wouldn't be like this . all my fault .

I just wanted to see her , so i went to the last place i saw her , when i made it into the library i went straight to her seat , when she is always reading there and her cheeks so red , she was like an angel and this morning surly i was the devil . 

The blur became real when the tears filled my eyes , i can't do this now , i have to be strong for her , it just tears me apart when i think that maybe she is hurting because of me . my thoughts were snapped when i saw the flash across the room , the dim light caught my intentions , i made my way following the light and it was a phone when i picked it up , the cell owner dad was calling maybe he is missing too , i couldn't pick it up , i was to busy thinking about her , so i roomed the aisles thinking maybe the owner is around here .

When i made my turn , i was too shocked to move , happy that i found her but i was in rage when i saw how she is , the newt thing i knew is that i am at the flooring picking her up so gently because she was broken , her blood filled my hand , i wish someone killed me before i saw her like that .

" Lills , oh my god , what happened ? , baby listen to me , please wake up . lills , please answer me . " , i couldn't help i was crying rivers now , the world had no mercy , how someone could this ? , who did this ? , all things were storming into my head but all i wanted is for her to call my name .

" Adam , come here . " , i was yelling so hard , carrying her around , i didn't care if i was making a mess , all what matter is her .

" Baby , Please  come back to me . "

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