Forbidden Love .

7_ Deep Emotions

lillia P.O.V

I saw sorrow on his eyes , he was hurt , and this means that all my attemps to not hurt him more only made it worse but i was wondering why did he care ?

" Alex , i know what are you thinking so I'll spare you the hesitation and I'll start first . "

alex had a scared look on his face , he was so pure i wanted to hug him and tell him it's alright . he was feeling like we are divorcing , he really care for me .

" Alex , you are such a nice guy , Actually for me you are the best ever , beside my family you were the first one who really cared for me , and tried to know me and saw me for my reality my personality and after I've been pushing you away , you are still trying and that's make it really hard for me . "

" So , why are you doing this ? why are you pushing me away ? . "

" Alex , it's not easy as you think , this society always banned me , for them i was invisivle and not woth it , for them i was a trash , a terrorist . and everyone who is close to me is nothing but worse , so i don't want you to face the same thing , i can't handle seeying you dealinh with all the pain I've been trough , you don't deserve it . "

Lies . well not all of them , i really didn't want him to suffer from that pain but the main reason , i was falling for him , and i didn't want this love .

Alex gave me a long look , like he was proceeding everythind i said .

" I don't care Lills , i don't care about anyone one of them . people tend to be judgemental all the time , they don't try to know the others or see them for who they really are so they judge the others because it's easy . lillia , the first time i saw you i knew i wanted you to be my friend , i noticed how everyone here treated you like a shit . and that made me hate them and want you more , i just wanted you to see me and be my friend , is that too much to ask . ? "

how can someone not fall for that and not soften his heart for the great creature .

" No it's not . and i want to be your friend alex , believe i want that more than you . but i don't want you to get hurt . "

" well , why don't you leave that up to me if i wanted to be hurt or not . and who told you i care about them , if they hated me for being with you then they are gladly to walk out of my life . "

He was fighting hard just for our friendship , what will he do for love ? .

" then i guess we are good , right ? "

" we are more than that lills , we are perfect . "

perfect . yes i wanted that for him and me but it can't it was hard more like impossible.

Alex P.O.V

Being cold towards girls will only make them love you more . that was bullshit , if you really wanted something you have to fight for it , you have to earn it . and i wanted lillia friendship , actually i wanted more than that but clearly she wasn't ready for it and i didn'twant to push her dor things she didn't want to . my friend , i was satisfied with that .

" lills , how did you like my friends ? "

" they are sweet just like you said , but i think annabelle hates me . "

" No she doesn't, she just doesn't know you that well , annabelle is a great girl and once she get to know she will like you . "

That's right , Annabelle didn't hate her , she just wasn't comfortablw with the fact that i wanted lillia as a friend and with lillia ignoring me it just made her flame grew bigger . And for another reason i can't tell .

" i think we should be heading inside right now , my brother must've gone crazy looking for me . "

" Whoa , you have a brother ? how come i didn't know ? . "

" Yes , i have a brother and you don't know because i never mentioned him . "

" Why he is annoying and you hate the fact that he is here too ? . "

lills laughed out loud , her laugh was bold but her face was shy it was the great combination that i love .

" No , it's not like that he is actually my twin and i really love him . he is my best half but he is really good to people and they love him , and i always push him away so that people will still love him away from me , just lile i did with you . "

And again she is sad , I'm holding my self to not go there and hug her and tell it's okay because now I'm here .

" listen , lills you need to stop this . i can feel your brother because thats what ive been feeling lately with ignoring me . people like me and your brother wants to be there for you and we don't really care about who is gonna hate , because it's you who matter . "

She just gave that little smile , i know her now . she do that when she doesn't have anything to say .

lillia P.O.V

we made our way back to the college . the eyes and the whispers followed us through the wole way , alex was a famous guy and i was just this weird girl beside him and people didn't fail to prove it . but alex did prove his point , he really didn't care for anyone of them , it's  me who matters that's what he said .

i chose to burn in hell , to see him hurt . i thought by ignoring him i was taking the easy way , but alex proved that there wasn't an easy way , we've all being hurt somehow .

" i wanna head to the library , i have some books i wanna catch . "

" then i wanna come with you . "

" No you won't , because i know you are worried about me , which is stupid because there is nothing to be worry about , and your friends has been waiting for you this long time . "

i pointed to alex friends at the back , and they seemed a little irritated well sorry .

" and obviously we don't want annabelle to hate me more . "

alex sighed and he was deafeated he knew i was right , seeying him confused between me and his friends was cute , but i wanted him to chose them always .

" No she won't I'll make sure of that , well i hate to see it but i guess this is a goodbye . "

" A goodbye ? , no alex it's not say see you later , because you will . "

Alex had a huge smile on his face before he waved to me and left , he liked what i said and i loved to see him happy .

Actually , i wanted alex to go with his friends but part of me wanted him here . i wanted to go to the library but there was a guy there , he was also nice to me but not like alex , he had a weird way of showing it . and it's creepy , i sound crazy right now i know , when finally people were being nice to me , I'm being weird maybe they were right afterall about me . but seriously something fishy was going on with this guy .

i was too focused on my thoughts until i bumped into someone and there he was , looking at me with his piercing blue eyes and mischievous smile .

" You should be carfull , don't walk around like that when there is all this horrible people around you . "

and he was gone just like , who talk like that to starngers and walk away like there is nothing , he is such a creep .

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