Forbidden Love .

23_ Letters to you .

lillia P.O.V

it's only been two days but it felt forever for me . I still feel the heat of his body against mine , his scent was like a drug to me . and i was addict to him , i don't know how i'm gonna survive a month without him but he told me to wait , i've waited all my life so if waiting another month will solve all the problems , then be it . i'm ready for this .

He told me to believe him , he told me that when he comeback everything will be fine . and i had faith him , I have this feeling that when he come back we will be happy , i hope this feeling won't dissapoint me .

No one knew where alex went , no annabelle no chris , even his mother didn't knew except for his father , but i surly don't have to courage to show up infront of him and ask him where his son went ? , who am i to ask this ? what if alex father asked me this . how will answer , Actually even I don't have the answer for that question , but he promised me that when he come back i will have the answer for that , and i believed him .

Now , i had no idea how to reach alex or how to commicate with him , so i decide that i would write him letter for each week he is away .

" week one : I Miss you . 

Alex , it's been two days since i didn't see you . i kno we weren't talking before this anyway but then i knew that even when we were mad at each other i would see you , and i would know that you are here . but know whenever i look i see emptiness because you are not here , this winter is not helping either it's so cold and you are not here to make it warm , i don't feel like i'm home anymore , because i knew that when i wake up the next i won't see you , i won't feel you . when you read this you may think i'm just overreacting , that i'm crazy . but the truth is this distance is making mad , out of my mind . The lack of you is driving me crazy .

So in this just two days I miss you more than ever . "

i wanted to write so much more , and expess all my feelings but i was interrupted by adam and belle giggles and laughs . those two were such a love birds , i'm so glad annabelle finally saw adam love for her and adam finally broke out of his shyness and fought for what he wanted , that's one of the so many things i wanted to tell alex , but he wasn't here .

" So are you ready to go ? . " , annabelle would pop up every morning in my room dragging me somewhere , she was never bothered by the idea that i wasn't in the mood which was the case everyday , she was the sunshine in this cold winter , sometimes she gets really annoying but after all she is one of the few people that i can't imagine my life without .

" I'm ready , but are you sure you want to go with me ? . " , unlike everytime this time i was going somewhere and belle tagging along .

" If that's make you happy , then yes i'm so ready . " , and like everytime she just light up my day .

" Adam , please come with us . " , this was the hundreth time belle beg adam , usually adam fall for belle beggings and her puppy eyes so easily but this time he just couldn't .

" I told you i can't , my love . i'm not ready for that , i don't wanna go there and do something i will definetly regret later . " 

Annabelle finally gave up knowing he won't change his mind , i bid adam goodbye and after what felt like eternity of those love birds saying goodbye to each other , belle finally decided to grace with her presence in the car .

we didn't talk much in the car i prefered to be silent , our ride to the hospital was a blur for me , i had so many toughts i didn't even notice that we made it .

belle and I were heading to those cold hospitals rooms where vicotr was laying now . the first day alex left i knew that victor has a brain tumour , and that explained all the bad things he did and all the evil toughts , his tumour was controlling him , it made him another person .