Forbidden Love .

25_ My salvation

Song : As Long as you love me - Sleeping at last 

This song is so accurate with this chapter and it's great , hear it . 

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Lillia P.O.V

Today i'm getting out of this crappy place A.K.A hospital . don't get me wrong Everyone was here taking care of me , being nice from the nurses to the hospital everyone took care of me , my family supportted me so much , but i knew better everyone was giving me pity eyes , because rape was a big deal , and for a  muslim girl my dignity was everything , so you can say i lost my everything . 

I was heading out of hospital wishing i would never come back here and this is the last time but i can hear my inner self whishpering No promises . 

Seriously how can someone mange to have all this bad things happen to him ? maybe i was just a victim, maybe not . maybe i was playing as a victim but everything was because of me . these toughts are eating me alive , so many questions running trought my head , How people will look at me after this ? One more reason fo them to hate me . How is my dad gonna face the society ? i'm nothing but a shame for him . I'm tired of this .

I'm drowing and i need someone to pull me out . Alex , i immediatly thought of him , because he was always my salvation , but will he still be after this ? .

the chilly wind slaped my face the moment i steped out of the hospital , i was excepting my dad or adam to pick me up , but to my suprise i found alex waiting for me as always . he is still here . 

" I'm so sorry i'm late , i was caught up in the traffic . "

" Alex , what are you doing here ? . " , I regreted my words the second they come because my voice souded like i didn't want him here and i already can see the hurt look in his eyes . 

" I Insisted to be the one to pick you up , i'm sorry i didn't know that would bother you . " 

Yes he was hurt and that didn't make my dad any better , because here I am again hurting the people that love and i didn't intend to .

" No , alex you know you can never bother , i'm just suprised to see you here . " , he smiled but he was still hurt .

Alex being the gentle man he was , he lead me to his car , opened the door for me and made me comfortable .

when alex got into the car beside me i looked at him deeply , he really changed in this month i can see now , he looked so grown up with the bread on his face just made him hotter than he was , i'm sure all the girls are gonna swoon over him now and my possesive side was getting up on his own . 

" You Like what you see ? . " , I didn't realize i was looking at alex like a creep until he asked me that .

"I'm sorry , it's just the beard looks great on you , it's a distraction really . "

" Don't be sorry lills , you can look as much as you can it's all yours . "

All mine , is it ? 

" Altought chris say that i look stupid . " 

" Well chris is stupid , you look hot . " my face become red the moment i said this and alex was laughing hard at me , i couldn't help but laugh too .

" I'm glad you think like that lills , i did all that to just impress you . "

" You don't have to do anything because i love you no matter what you are , alex . " that was meant to my thoughts only , but i was craving to say it .